u/latentgaysexposure

cr of artworks: Yukiyuki Yuki (雪透ゆき)

They're a CVVC voicebanks (and Kogoene Fin has 2 of them) and they have [a site](http://finland.futene.net/index.html), but all the DL links there are dead. Their creator, Chall, seems to be inactive for a long time - their Twitter is deleted, and the last video on their Niconico account was posted 12 years ago, so there's no way to contact them. If you have the voicebanks, please, let me know. Thank you very much in advance!

Not trying to self-diagnose or stuff (since I can't go to psychotherapist), just thinking out loud ig

Sorry if the text is hard to comprehend, my English is very much (/ref)

Basically the title. It's a vicious circle I'm unable to break. I'm upset or feeling down for some reason > I log off for a while to not be annoying for everyone instead of Just Saying What's Wrong > I get used to interacting with nobody and lurking > I still somehow come back but notice that I've missed out a lot of things that happened to my friends and it upsets me even more because it means I'm further behind everyone than before. And every time, the isolation time gets longer. Recently I was happy that I finally reintegrated into my friend group after 2 whole ass (or even more) weeks of self-isolation (a month has passed since then.), but a couple of days ago this cycle has begun again. I appreciate my friends bearing with me, but I know nobody is gonna tolerate it forever. So I either have to make myself stay no matter what or just delete everything and erase my traces. I can't take it anymore tbh

Also my sociology exam is tomorrow and I'm unprepared af (and not planning to cheat because fuck it we ball) please wish me luck :,]