u/legdayenjoyer03

I find him mildly infuriating and cringe. But he’s tall and strong looking. We work on the same management level for a corporate company so he’s my direct peer. I think part of this is stemming from the inexplicable attraction men without jobs have for me, the guy im casually dating right now is an actor. Also we having similar upbringings, both have immigrant parents and grew up in the Midwest. This has been consuming me and getting worse with the weather. Someone drag me so I don’t act on my worst impulses and end up starting a toxic situationship with a person I have to continue seeing and working with everyday.

It's been years of trying to be happy single but I just am not cut out for this lifestyle but I don't want to settle for not being in love. A lot of my friends are settling for people they are not in love with and I don't envy them. Would be very easy to get in a relationship but love is so elusive. The pain of being alive.