29 and dealing with insecurities about height still
I was diagnosed with Turner’s Mosaic at 11, and started on daily growth hormone shots. I’m now currently about 4’8-4’9 (which is really annoying because on my license it says I’m 4’10, it’s literally like I’m shrinking lol).
I’ve gone through periods of my life where I’ve been hyper aware of my height, high school especially I was very insecure about it. And I’ve gone through periods where I don’t really care. Right now I’m in a period where I think about it everyday. I think it’s because I currently work as a nanny, and the 10 year old girl I watch is now about my height. It’s difficult looking at her and realizing that that’s how I look to other people (height wise). And her friends also love to say things like “omg I’m taller than your nanny.” It’s so stupid that at my grown age stuff like this bothers me but it does.
I go out to clubs and bars with my friends and all I can think about is that any guy who looks at me just thinks I look weird, or like a child. I feel like women taller than me are able to look sexy in a way I can’t. It’s stupid but all I think about is if there’s some way for me to get taller because I’m literally delusional lol. I would literally take just 3 more inches of height. I think once I stop nannying and stop being reminded everyday that I’m the same height as a 4th grader I’ll feel better lol. Just needed to vent.