u/livnomora

I'm the only one who remembers her affair, my dad was gone bc of war and my siblings were too young to understand what was happening. My dad asked me what I knew. I was 7 and told him everything... that night my mom looked at me and told me she has to leave her husband because I'm a liar. Since that day she hated me. I felt like more of a housemaid than a daughter. I remember going through all of life's biggest moments alone. Sge didn't let me go outside while my siblings did. I was constantly put down to the point of being convinced to get PLASTIC SURGERY at 14. I thank God every day my grandparents didn't allow more than the 1 procedure I had (which was unnecessary and caused permanent scarring). I got my period and waited months to tell her even then, I regretted it. I was outed by her when she read my diary out to my family. She convinced everyone in my family I'm a liar and being autistic I've also been made out to be unintelligent to cover her lies. My nice clothes would be thrown away. My art would be thrown away. Anything I valued was constatly thrown away. Now I'm an adult who honestly isn't well adjusted at all. My sister was treated the opposite way. She did well with my sister but also raised her to put me down and constatly told her I'm jealous of her. Honestly I'm happy for my sister she received actual support and was able to be successful. But it's triggering to attend her huge life milestones because I feel like I'm part of their inside jokes and I'll never have a good life because of the abuse I endured.

I know I'm in control of my life and I'm working on bettering myself I just can't help but to think I had a horrible start at life and I didn't deserve it. Being bullied is truly horrible

Anybody dealing with mental landlords??