21F I feel trapped online because if I go irl there is no one there. Everyone is just online
Look at all these posts online, on youtube, reddit, and various other social medias and websites. And then there are even more people who are just viewers. Think about how many views there are on youtube in total across all videos. There's probably more content on there than we can even comprehend or realize.
When I go in real life, things are so often empty. The sidewalks, porches, parks, libraries. And even the few remaining people that are there are all trying to politely ignore each other. It is so lonely and depressing.
So I am stuck. The internet is lonely and a depressing way to live so I go irl, but there is nothing irl anymore, so I go back online. If I stay irl, what do I even have to do here? The newspaper boxes are empty, the pay phones are gone or disconnected, the mall is abandoned. So I just go online. Even when you ask people a question on reddit, they say "just google it". People are even using reddit less because now they're talking to chat gpt.
I am posting here because I am very alone and in need of friends, and hopefully this community will have a little more sympathy than most of reddit. So, unsympathetic people of reddit, please be kind in the comments. Please don't say "just join groups" or "just stop using the internet" or "just" anything. If people are in need, saying "just" feels quite rude and dismissive.
I'm hoping that other people who feel this way might feel less alone in seeing this. If there's anything that you actually do to combat this loneliness, you can share it. But everyone's situations are different and not everyone has access to the same things so it might not be a solution for everyone.
In short, I just wish that all these people who live on the internet could be in real life and be socially allowed to meet and talk to each other. I'm in Pennsylvania if you want irl friends.