u/longlivepopuplights

I lost my son at 40 weeks, it's been 8 days since I delivered him. The days have gotten easier, I'm less weepy and can get through them even though they're still hard. As soon as the sun goes down I feel so heavy, so depressed. I'm trying to distract myself with games or TV but my mind just spirals into grief and despair as soon as the sun sets. I know it hasn't been very long and that the grieving process has just started, but I'd love to know if this ever gets a little better.

I just don't know why this happened. He was moving yesterday. I've had prodromal labor for weeks but went into actual labor this morning , got all excited and headed in just to find no heartbeat. This was our first baby and I don't know if I could ever be pregnant again.