u/loserpuppi

i began my journey to veganism a while ago ( was a vegetarian for longer but realized even vegetarians contribute to the abuse of animals ), ive been fully vegan for a bit now.. but i have realized i dont know how to handle the sorrow and pain i feel in my soul when everyone around me is exploiting animals, i am seriously so incredibly depressed about it… i just wanna scream at everyone that they are horrible human beings and force everyone to see what the industries do to these poor animals… what can i do??? 💔 i do have a psychiatrist that i see sometimes, which ive been thinking of contacting to see if i can have an emergency appointment to a therapist or something.. but even so, that doesnt stop the world from abusing animals..

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i just finished watching joey carbstrong’s investigation into a UK dairy farm, it broke my fucking heart… it made me realize something, you basically only see men work in these horrible industries, where they torture and sexually abuse vulnerable animals…. i watched dominion a while back and i did realize it was a lot of men but now it fully hit me. im not surprised honestly. absolute psychopaths, all of them.

ive struggled with food and self esteem issues for years, ive been fluctuating between starving myself and eating my feelings away but feeling ashamed afterwards. my struggles with swallowing started last year but it got really bad in January of this year. now my brain realized that because its so easy to lose weight as i cant eat basically anything other than soygurt , mashed potatoes and nutritional drinks, i started to just eat even less and sometimes not eat at all, not only because of what i assume is an eating disorder but also because i have no appetite or enjoyment for food anymore. ive almost lost 30 kilos from 96 kilos, so im not underweight.
ive done an ultrasound of my throat, nothing. ive had a scope down my nose to my throat, nothing. my doctor said next step will be an swallowing xray, which im nervous about.
has anyone else gotten an eating disorder from dysphagia?

i have wondered something for a while, are mlp yumes accepted in the community? like people shipping themselves and/or their ponysona with a mlp character?