u/lotusthoughtss

I get super obsessive with my thoughts but sometimes there are moments where I genuinely just don't care and let it sit with me because like I don't get paid enough for this. And it works out in my favor and the thought just disappear. It's the best feeling ever bc you know you just saved yourself a week's worth of worry about some moral failing in exchange of sacrificing the need to poke around the thought.

I don't know if this is an universal experience or I am just unfortunate with the people around me but whenever I tell certain ppl my moral ocd or when they just realize I'm basically a punching bag when it comes to guilt, they sometimes always see it as a opening to say whatever belief they have and try to make me believe in it too.

I have had several past experiences like that, one time it kinda sucked ( but wasn't bad like the other ones) because it was from a fellow who had the same condition of moral ocd as me, they would often send me videos of those vegan awareness videos (few really disturbing ones) even when I asked them not to— trying to make me stop eating meat and reassure me that "once you do that, your compulsion will never come back".

Like it's always followed up with so much of reassurance. I find those situations very creepy, is this some sort of grooming? Doing that while knowing very well that person is vulnerable in their beliefs and taking advantage of that?

I don't even know what to say because this is stupid but I just need to get this out of my chest because I was finally having improvements after weeks of long episodes and now everything got freaking worse.

My friend, who is strong about politics that I didn't even know she was into until recently forced me to listen to a rant by firmly holding my hand.

(she likes stuff like anti natalism, the one where they believe life is completely full of suffering with no gains and we are deluding ourselves by focusing on short term happiness so being born into this world is inherently wrong and people who choose to have kids are selfish & evil)

She kept going on about how life is all suffering and how people (including me) aren't ready enough to accept that yet, even when I repeatedly asked her not to because these kind of topics triggers my ocd but she counterattacked what I said by saying my ocd is another proof that life is all about suffering and "breeders" (referring to my parents?) are the reason why we all suffer because they collectively made a decision to birth me while not considering that I might be autistic with a disability. And I told her what she said was hurtful but she insisted that I'm not woke enough to see the truth yet and showed me a sub reddit and a group chat with people with similar beliefs according to her to convince me that she isn't crazy and the "only" one and all those sub reddits had like 100k+ people.

She kept convincing me to see things her way and trying to make me realize how evil my parents are and all of this just made me sad, uncomfortable and I had a full on anxiety attack afterwards.

She told me I'm not a morally good person if I keep denying the truth and I don't even know why would she say that to me when I'm not even planning on having kids, I just feel awful, after listening to her rant I've been feeling guilty all day long and my brain keep bringing up what she said to convince me that I'm a bad person and these intrusive thoughts won't stop, they keep telling me life is nothing and it's all just suffering and there's nothing to live for. I'm just so tired from all of these I can't take it anymore.

While there were lot of mixed reactions with RTE 2, it's still a successful game ( and I bet if the production team advertised it globally more, it would've been even more bigger!)

I genuinely hope they produce more games like RTE in the future but with lots of preparation, that been said, what genres , tropes, improvements or personal wishes would you like to see in future games?