u/love-spirals

TW: death threats, suicide threats.
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These are just a few things that happened during that relationship. There’s a lot more, but I’d need to write a fucking book to tell it all. Not sure if I picked the right tag.

- Got tattoos about me, one at the start of the relationship and the other when shit had started to crumble

- Told me that he was 100% sure that I was the reincarnation of a past family member
(once he got mad at me the story changed to me “dying on purpose” during said past life and that I was guilty of leaving him alone)

- Lied that he hacked my devices and that he knew I was cheating on him
(I wasn’t, so I knew he hadn’t hacked anything)

- Cheated from the very start of our relationship including with one of my close friends at the time, did a myriad of drugs behind my back and was probably doing other things I wasn’t comfortable with. I only found out about this stuff at the very end of the relationship

- Would break up with me so often that I can’t remember the official dating timeline at all. Sometimes he’d break up with me multiple times a week. I think he even broke up with me a few times in a single day

- Caught a serious STD during a psych hospital stay while simultaneously being in a long distance relationship with an old sugar mommy

- Would get so mad at me that he’d punch the walls and create holes in them and constantly threaten suicide, including sending me a picture of a rope once

- Saw that I posted about a singer once and decided that, since it was a man’s name, I was dating a man with the same name. Then he started to threaten this mysterious imaginary man

- Swore up and down that I was online when I wasn’t (he either lied or his app glitched) and would text a million times per night while I was trying to sleep to go to work and uni

- Decided that I was pregnant with another man’s child and that he’d kill me and stab me in the stomach. I was abroad at the time and he had no idea if I was pregnant or seeing anyone

- Said he had nude images of me and that he’d post them online
(Which he took without my consent)

- Since I was abroad and he couldn’t physically hurt me he started calling, emailing and texting me multiple times a day from burner accounts. I am talking possibly hundreds of online accounts and phone numbers and dozens of voice messages threatening my life

- This lasted for years! I couldn’t get rid of one of the accounts due to circumstances outside of my control so he’d make multiple burner accounts to contact me through it. I had to delete everything else I had at the time

- Would leave me alone for a few months just to start again and again and again. I’d breathe for a few weeks/months and then the death threats would start again eroding all the sanity I had left

- Travelled to where I was fucking 2+ years into the death threat saga, without my knowledge, and started hunting me in that location

- Somehow found my workplace even though that city had a population of millions of people. I found out later that he had a good idea of where I worked because he went to locations similar to my job and started asking about me, eventually finding someone who knew me. He lied and said he really wanted to work with me so he got my number. In fact he lied about it to everyone he met there and they all thought he was so nice and charming

- Thank fuck I had travelled too that week, so when he went to my job I wasn’t there

The story gets more complicated after that, but it also somewhat ends shortly after. I think talking to my colleagues and the fact he assumed I had talked to the authorities at that point scared him enough that he didn’t try showing up there again. He still tried to harass me online on and off for a couple years, but the intensity decreased a lot, and eventually stopped. I ask someone to look him up online every now and then for safety reasons and he’s seemingly still wearing bits of my skin to this day. He also still looks very unstable.

This was many years ago, I moved far away, and I’m safe and happy. But fuck, I went through hell with that man. His actions erode all my peace of mind. But I am so stronger now, mentally and emotionally. I’m only posting because it feels really empowering to look back and see what I overcame.

So I was doing a guided Higher Self meditation today. It was my first time trying this particular one. My husband is a hypnotist so I’m very used to being hypnotised. The meditation was going really well. And then poof I was somewhere else, fully conscious.

I found myself on the upper floor of a house I have never seen in my life. I had zero idea where I was, why or how. My “body” didn’t feel like a body at all. It felt like cold air, like I was made of a mass of moving cold wind. I was basically hovering just off the floor, like a ghost, my head and part of my torso were going through the floor.

What completely shocked me was how conscious I felt. It did not feel like a dream. I was fully aware, fully present, thinking clearly. I knew I wasn’t home. This didn’t feel exactly like a lucid dream either. Last time I had a lucid dream (or the closest thing I’ve had to one) was a little over a year ago and I didn’t feel as “physical” as I did this time.

Anyway I was upstairs and then I noticed a black cat near my head. I thought for a second it was one of my own cats but I paid closer attention and realised it wasn’t and her paw looked like it could be hurt. Then a calico came up the stairs, almost like they were curious about me, maybe sensing my presence. I think I also spotted a third cat on the floor below, possibly grey. I tried to move toward the stairs to go down and the second I did I was yanked straight back into my body and then I couldn’t move.

I was fully conscious, completely aware, but totally paralysed. I guess that’s classic sleep paralysis, I have had SP experiences before years ago and they were terrifying because I had my eyes open and could see “monsters”. But this time I just felt unable to move and had my eyes shut. My husband was right there next to me in bed reading. I tried to speak to him and nothing came out. Not a sound. He later confirmed he heard nothing the entire time, which is so weird to me because I’m certain I groaned out loud at some point. When I “woke up” I looked at my phone and saw that the meditation session was nearly over, I wonder if that’s one of the reasons why I came back so quickly. Said meditation had nothing to do with going out of your body btw.

Anyway I’m not sure which flair I should choose, I’m fairly certain I had a spontaneous AP experience but guess I’ll ask you all who are experienced. Does it sound like one? Any idea why I ended up in that house or do we just float off anywhere when it happens at random? I’m so confused. Thanks in advance guys.

Hi everyone.

I’ve had a few spiritual experiences before. Some of them involve a tall shadow person as a child, visitation dreams, a whole conversation with a loving entity during meditation, etc. But never anything like this. Lately I’ve started seeing the occasional “orb”, like a tiny light, pass in front of me, or near me. I get my eyes checked every year and I don’t think this is anything physical.

First time I noticed one I was in my bedroom with the door wide open and I saw it move towards the kitchen. Another time I was in the kitchen and I saw the orb move around my right side. They look almost like a white glowing dot and they always seem to be moving with intention. I notice them, look at them, and then they quickly disappear.

I’ve seen all kinds of explanations for them: angels, fairies, spirits, energy. I’ve lived in this place with my husband and two cats for over a year and it doesn’t seem to be “haunted”. My cats do stare at nothing sometimes, which is a little weird, but they’re cats so :P

Can anyone clarify what they are? Thank you in advance!

I’ve had a few spiritual experiences before. Some of them involve a tall shadow person as a child, visitation dreams, a whole conversation with a loving entity during meditation, etc. But never anything like this. Lately I’ve started seeing the occasional “orb”, like a tiny light, pass in front of me, or near me. I get my eyes checked every year and I don’t think this is anything physical.

First time I noticed one I was in my bedroom with the door wide open and I saw it move towards the kitchen. Another time I was in the kitchen and I saw the orb move around my right side. They look almost like a white glowing dot and they always seem to be moving with intention. I notice them, look at them, and then they quickly disappear.

I’ve seen all kinds of explanations for them: angels, fairies, spirits, energy. I’ve lived in this place with my husband and two cats for over a year and it doesn’t seem to be “haunted”. My cats do stare at nothing sometimes, which is a little weird, but they’re cats so :P

Has anyone had any experience with these? I love this sub so I wanted to ask. Thanks in advance 💚