u/loversofhearts

I have a deep feeling a strong destiny swap happened in my life.

Like, whenever someone does me wrong, usually they get close to me, after the fallout that they usually provoked, then they get so much more life benefits and blessings after, and sometimes those blessings are exactly the things I prayed for myself, it’s scary how specific it is.

Whenever I have a good blessing, it quickly gets spoiled or canceled. I stopped being happy when things get good now. I don’t know how it happened or why. I’ve worked so hard just to end up having to do SW or begging for money constantly because at work, there's always at least ONE person messing with me causing me to lose my employment, and when that happens often, it's virtually impossible to save up, cause the bills stack up, and then nobody wants to be around someone who's financially struggling somehow. It's like a toxic cycle, and trust me I put in the efforts, to prevent this, I've learned my lessons, but still.

I am tellng you guys, deep down I know I am not meant to be living this way. Something is deeply very wrong with the way this is going, but I feel too scattered, confused and hurt to even see clearly, this is why I am asking for any guidance. I am grateful for the blessings, but I don't get attached now, and I always have a plan B, in case it gets spoiled or canceled, because it happened too many times.

How tf does that happen? I want to put a final stop to it, cause that’s not normal. It can’t be just because of my Saturn placements or Pluto.

I feel like something is deeply wrong with the way my life is going. I feel some sort of a swap or curse happened there. My intuition is screaming me this. I can’t live like this anymore, please any advices or suggestions or comments. My intuition is telling me it’s someone in my family and minimum two people from the past (friends, acquaintances, etc.). At the end of the day, idc who could have swapped or cursed me, I just want it to stop. My intuition is telling me I've let some jealous/envious person in my circle, in the past too. but again, I just want this to end. I'm pushing 30 years old, I can't have my life being a mess like this, it needs to stop, or I might do something real drastic to put an end to this.

I’m Libra stellium, Scorpio moon and Taurus rising if that matters (using Vedic). I’m Haitian and Cuban descent.

Any advice is welcome.

I have a deep feeling a strong destiny swap happened in my life.

Like, whenever someone does me wrong, usually they get close to me, after the fallout that they usually provoked, then they get so much more life benefits and blessings after, and sometimes those blessings are exactly the things I prayed for myself, it’s scary how specific it is.

Whenever I have a good blessing, it quickly gets spoiled or canceled. I stopped being happy when things get good now. I don’t know how it happened or why. I’ve worked so hard just to end up having to do SW or begging for money constantly because at work, there's always at least ONE person messing with me causing me to lose my employment, and when that happens often, it's virtually impossible to save up, cause the bills stack up, and then nobody wants to be around someone who's financially struggling somehow. It's like a toxic cycle, and trust me I put in the efforts, to prevent this, I've learned my lessons, but still.

I am tellng you guys, deep down I know I am not meant to be living this way. Something is deeply very wrong with the way this is going, but I feel too scattered, confused and hurt to even see clearly, this is why I am asking for any guidance. I am grateful for the blessings, but I don't get attached now, and I always have a plan B, in case it gets spoiled or canceled, because it happened too many times.

How tf does that happen? I want to put a final stop to it, cause that’s not normal. It can’t be just because of my Saturn placements or Pluto. Also, I have Aqua MC, so I guess I was meant for unconventional, creative, unique career path, and Gemini in the 2nd house, so multiple income where I use mainly communications and my voice... But all of this doesn't make any sense... I barely get engagements online, I get ignored all the time, people don't think I am interesting enough or worth investing in. So what is all this then?

I feel like something is deeply wrong with the way my life is going. I feel some sort of a swap or curse happened there. My intuition is screaming me this. I can’t live like this anymore, please any advices or suggestions or comments. My intuition is telling me it’s someone in my family and minimum two people from the past (friends, acquaintances, etc.). At the end of the day, idc who could have swapped or cursed me, I just want it to stop. My intuition is telling me I've let some jealous/envious person in my circle, in the past too. but again, I just want this to end. I'm pushing 30 years old, I can't have my life being a mess like this, it needs to stop, or I might do something real drastic to put an end to this. I am genuinely exhausted.

Based on my birth chart, what you guys think? Even outside of astrology, what is your opinion?

I am scorpio sun, mercury, libra venus, taurus rising and sag moon. I’m Haitian and Cuban descent.

I’ve put my birth charts and a picture of me, if that helps.

https://preview.redd.it/z2o7dudg5a9h1.jpg?width=700&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=10dc2dc517dedc217b5b41fca96b7d5378d7bd5e

I have a deep feeling a strong destiny swap happened in my life.

Like, whenever someone does me wrong, usually they get close to me, after the fallout that they usually provoked, then they get so much more life benefits and blessings after, and sometimes those blessings are exactly the things I prayed for myself, it’s scary how specific it is.

Whenever I have a good blessing, it quickly gets spoiled or canceled. I stopped being happy when things get good now. I don’t know how it happened or why. I’ve worked so hard just to end up having to do SW or begging for money constantly because at work, there's always at least ONE person messing with me causing me to lose my employment, and when that happens often, it's virtually impossible to save up, cause the bills stack up, and then nobody wants to be around someone who's financially struggling somehow. It's like a toxic cycle, and trust me I put in the efforts, to prevent this, I've learned my lessons, but still.

I am telling you guys, deep down I know I am not meant to be living this way. Something is deeply very wrong with the way this is going, but I feel too scattered, confused and hurt to even see clearly, this is why I am asking for any guidance. I am grateful for the blessings, but I don't get attached now, and I always have a plan B, in case it gets spoiled or canceled, because it happened too many times.

How tf does that happen? I want to put a final stop to it, cause that’s not normal. It can’t be just because of my Saturn placements or Pluto.

I feel like something is deeply wrong with the way my life is going. I feel some sort of a swap or curse happened there. My intuition is screaming me this. I can’t live like this anymore, please any advices or suggestions or comments. My intuition is telling me it’s someone in my family and minimum two people from the past (friends, acquaintances, etc.). At the end of the day, idc who could have swapped or cursed me, I just want it to stop. My intuition is telling me I've let some jealous/envious person in my circle, in the past too. but again, I just want this to end. I'm pushing 30 years old, I can't have my life being a mess like this, it needs to stop, or I might do something real drastic to put an end to this. I am genuinely exhausted.

Based on my birth chart, what you guys think? Even outside of astrology, what is your opinion?

I’m Libra stellium, Scorpio moon and Taurus rising if that matters (using Vedic). I’m Haitian and Cuban descent.

I can put a picture of my birth chart or a picture of me, if that can helps.