was just listening to the live rope album and the roaring guitars would sound amazing in the backdrop of all the unspeakable violence that occurs. Theyve used harmonicas before too giving a sort of dark western feel. The Seer, children of god and even birthing do this. Idk, if Blood Meridian ever gets made they needa hit up Michael
Mathilda Hogberg is one of my transition goals (if I do end up transitioning). She’s so passable and beautiful. She gives off genuine female vibes. But, in an insta reel I saw her razer gaming laptop with a thick ass steam library. I said in another comment that so many trans women are into the trifecta of gaming, anime, and porn.
I rarely meet women with gaming laptops even though they obviously exist. And there ain’t nothin wrong with gaming, but it’s such a clash of aesthetics to see someone living such a stereotypical feminine coded soft girl life and then see a black brick with steam opened up. Lettuce b real here.
So many of us think that HSTS are the epitome of femininity but it’s not true. if James Charles transitioned he’d be super passable. Yet this mf used to have a gaming channel believe it or not.
yunablove is another HSTS transition goal of mine. She had a weird autistic fixation on AI. But she’s so pretty and feminine.
The lesson here is that AGP and HSTS both show signs of weird autistic male behavior. AGP much more so and it’s much more evident. So don’t feel bad, we’ll never be women. That’s the truth. AGP and HSTS are male at the end of the day. Some are just filled with more estrogen and have had more surgeries than others.
I’m still very confused about what direction I’ll take tbh. On one hand I wanna join the autistic legion of AGP and HSTS trans women. Being 5 ft 3 and Asian would help me pass. On the other hand, Id rather just live a normal life without thinking of any of this shit. but the point is, there will be parts of every HSTS and AGP that don’t pass
Since I was young, I’ve wanted to be a bird. I am not making this up. Specifically—an eagle. I have always envied birds’ abilities to fly and soar the skies with complete freedom.
Hell, if I could shapeshfit between an eagle and a human, I would. Not only would it be convenient, it’d also be wicked fun.
Would I press a button to do this? Hell yes. Now, supposing the right circumstances occurred, I could fixate on this and turn it into genuine distress. In fact, I don’t doubt that there are people out there who would willingly press a button to turn into a fox or other animal because they’ve felt distress about not being that animal.
Does pressing this button define my existence? Does pressing it mean I am what I say I am?
What if I pressed it, but then decided I wish I hadn’t a day later? What about a month later?
A hypothetical button is a weak experiment to try and define your existence.
I have strong AGP. I’ve had crossdressing desires since I was 4 years old. Within the past year, during arousal, there would have been numerous times I would’ve pressed a button to be a cisgender woman.
And there are many times when I would’ve pressed a button to become an eagle.
Imagine if we used this button test to weigh desires at every turn.
I would’ve been a transgender eagle with a genocidal streak of wiping out real estate agents and landlords if that were the case.