Burnt out and can’t get out
I have been a massage therapist for almost 9 years. I have definitely experienced my ups and downs with this career and unfortunately, I’ve experienced way too many downs and I have completely burnt out and fallen out of love with what I do. I have experienced a myriad of sexual assault and sexual harassment, which unfortunately is one of the main reasons that I just completely checked out. Over the past four years I have had three automobile accidents, my last one I was T-boned by somebody who ran a stop sign and destroyed my car and caused permanent injury to my body. I am chronically in pain and my upper back is constantly in pain. I have also been going through some health issues over the last few years, I got diagnosed with meneires disease 17 years ago and more recently diagnosed with low ferritin which makes me feel
Like death. I am working on that but having a physical job plus low ferritin has been…. A lot to deal with .
On top of everything else, I live in a very well populated city where Massage jobs are available, but I just absolutely cannot stand the way that things are run. I am absolutely disgusted with the Massage industry and how they take advantage of us. I am currently working for a place that is technically 1099 but the more I stay here the more little things are starting to fall through the cracks and they are taking advantage of me and doing a lot of things that I am now starting to not appreciate. I just recently found out that one of the office managers was complaining that I canceled on her during a period of time where I was extremely sick earlier this year. I was sick for about six weeks and was on doctors leave and state disability and the office manager decided to gossip and complain about me canceling on her so many times during this time.. and I’m just sitting here going you knew that I was sick. I don’t understand why you kept putting yourself on my schedule. Hearing that is just the nail in the coffin and I am just doing what I can to get out of this industry, but for some reason, I just do not get callbacks from jobs that are not Massage Therapy. I have revamped my entire résumé, I’ve even taken the word massage therapist off of my résumé. I cannot get out of massage therapy, and I am practically clawing my way to get out. I am exhausted, I am burnt out, I am so tired of being taken advantage of by these employers, and my body is just done.
I need so words of advice because my therapist has noticed I’m slipping into apathy.