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Hi, im 16F and I have ADHD, & really bad anxiety, im a senior in high school. But for my whole high school career I haven’t made 1 friend or do anything a normal teen has done. I barely talk or try to make connections because i know when I talk I will beat myself up for saying 1 thing wrong, I wish I wasn’t like this. But i literally have 0 to none social skills, im not ugly im decent looking like 4/10 maybe so maybe thats why people dont talk to me but i literally have a hard time starting conversations, having small talk or just doing normal stuff. I work at a grocery store but that doesn’t help with my social skills at all. I don’t know what to do, im going to community college next year and i know i have to get out my way to make friends.
The problem is i overthink literally everything. Before i say something i think about it 100 times and then just end up saying nothing because im scared ill sound weird or awkward. Then if i do say something, ill replay the conversation in my head for hours wondering if i embarrassed myself. I never know what to say after “hi” or how to keep a conversation going. I suck at small talk and i never know when its my turn to talk or what questions to ask. Im scared people think im boring, weird, or that i dont like them when really im just anxious.
My high school has like 4,000-5,000 students and somehow i still have no friends. I even joined a sport and a few clubs for about 6 months because everyone says thats the easiest way to make friends, and i still didn’t make a single one. I eat lunch alone, dont hang out with anyone after school, and ive never really had the normal high school experience. I see everyone else making friends so easily and i genuinely dont understand how they do it. I want friends so bad but its like my brain just freezes every time i get the chance to talk to someone. I feel like ive missed out on so much because of it.
Im scared that if i dont figure this out before community college, ill end up doing the exact same thing there. I dont want to spend another two years alone. I actually want to make friends, be able to talk to people without panicking, and stop overthinking every little thing i say. I just dont know how to get there.

Hi, I have a interview for the hostess position on Wednesday. I’m trying to get some tips, this would be my first job (if I did get hired) & this is like my 3rd job interview ever. I need some help with this interview and stuff they ask. I will bring a copy of my resume. I’m open to any advice or anything!!