u/m_maddy — reddlx

I love my dad but i don't wanna be a father like my dad

I recently re-watched this movie called em magan for those who haven't watched it's a Tamil movie about an abusive father(nassar )and his son (Bharath) Basically a Tamil spadikam. So when I watch this especially when Nasser comes on screen i get these childhood memories of him. My dad also runs a shop like nassar and i also used to work there like Bharat and several of the interactions between nassar and Bharath in that movie are so similar to me and my dad the way he criticises me and scolds me where soo similar from this fortunately unlike nassar my dad never beaten me in my entire life no matter how angry he got he never hurted me physically and even when he scolds me he never used curse words and compared that with so many other fathers I've seen my dad is like a saint. And that's the crazy part as a whole my dad ain't an abusive guy but i see my dad in this charecter. The way he made me feel little and worthless are extremely similar . He never expressed his love even though my mom says he loves me deeply.

So I've decided if i ever becomes a dad I'm never gonna follow my dad's footsteps. I will make sure my criticisms will not

belittle them and i will express my love to them and I'm gonna say my dad is also like me so they will not judge him

u/m_maddy — 22 hours ago

▲ 4 r/silentminds

Does anyone lost their inner voice ?

I lost my inner voice and i miss it. Usually when i do critical thinking i have this inner voice that kinda does a conversation with basically like a qna with myself. I ask a question and i get an answer. It basically felt like i was talking with another person but that person is also me it's kinda like i transform into a narrator. Whenever i was in tough situations this persona automatically kicks in and talk it out. But now it's gone and I don't know when it started to disappear but now i don't have that narrator inside me and i really miss him it's very hard to explain what i feel right now .

I don't know whether it happened as an effect of ageing they say our brain will not stop developing until our mid 20s maybe my brain thought it was not necessary anymore. i tried to share this with my parents but they didn't even understand what that inner voice is. My dad said i was mentally sick then now I'm cured

Has anybody gone through this kind of changes?. Do you think my dad is right i was crazy back then or am i crazy now😵

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u/m_maddy — 7 days ago

▲ 1 r/twentieskerala

Does anyone lost their inner voice ?

I lost my inner voice and i miss it. Usually when i do critical thinking i have this inner voice that kinda does a conversation with basically like a qna with myself. I ask a question and i get an answer. It basically felt like i was talking with another person but that person is also me (ഭ്രാന്ത് അല്ല 😬) more like i transform into a narrator. Whenever i was in tough situations this persona automatically kicks in and talk it out. But now it's gone and I don't know when it started to disappear but now i don't have that narrator inside me and i really miss him it's very hard to explain what i feel right now .

Has anybody gone through this kind of changes?. Do you think my dad is right i was crazy back then or am i crazy now😵

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u/m_maddy — 9 days ago