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Not even a bad book btw. It’s actually been my favorite since I read tapers by Tony Domenico, but I’m having the same issue all over again. I can’t stand it because the main character has (had?) a son and is a father. I don’t even get the chance to have my son go missing. Except I do. That’s the worst part. I am still fertile. It’s not even like an accident took it away. It’s my own fault that I dont want to be pregnant. Even from my own community. It’s “weak masculinity” and I have nothing to fear because men got beer bellies. Fucking disease. No amount of phalloplasty metoidioplasty or what have you will make me a father. Nothing but pumping myself up with a baby and reminders I’m apparently a man for that. Shitheads suggest cum filled strap ons like I want sperm for the novelty of it.

I’m on northindrone (progesterone only birth control at the highest dose), depo provera (progesterone birth control shot at the highest dose), and have my T-levels at nearly 800. It’s not enough to stop my period. I don’t know why I have to be bestowed the “honor” of such fertility. No I can’t get a hysterectomy. I want one but you don’t know my current situation. I want full phallo, I will even get rid of my ovaries. Apparently I’m the ideal life form to get pregnant. The female body is a fucking disease but since I’m a man it’s misogyny to say that. And it’s internalized cuz can’t forget I’m female too 🤞😁😁😁. I fucking hate every soul who deems my fertility as a reward. No hysterectomy. No blockers. It’s all so you can get pregnant. It’s like all I’m fucking destined to do is be some pregnant bitch with big titties pumped full of cum. I want this to end