I went to my first mass!!
I was so afraid to go! My family is UPCI Apostolic Pentecostal the kind that jumps over pews wears the skirts doesn’t cut their hair and speaks shamalamadingdong tongues and they raised me to think Catholics were satanic idolatrous mary worshippers. I left Pentecost about 7 or 8 years ago. Married a non practicing Catholic man. Became atheist. Had a traumatic experience with my youngest child landing in the NICU after respiratory failure, and told God if He would save her life - I’d follow His word again, wherever it led me. My daughter is now 6 months old and here I am.
I was absolutely terrified to attend a mass. In fact I’ve been wanting to since early May. My family would genuinely react better to me being atheist than they will me becoming catholic. I am so beyond scared of how they will react, I left my phone at home so they wouldn’t see my location pop up at my local parish.
The fights to come when they do find out will be worth it, I have never been more sure of my faith than I am now!!!
I am looking forward to OCIA this fall!!! I was a bit confused this morning and did my best to follow along with everyone else. My husband says I’ll learn more after attending OCIA and I’ll learn more the more services I attend.
Sorry for the long post!!! I just have no one else in my life to share this news with and I am so beyond happy I finally went despite being so afraid of what it means for my relationship with my family. I feel at peace in His hands!!! He will carry me. ✝️