I’m Not a Wizard..just a Mom.
I am the wife of a husband with Stage 3 Rectal Cancer, the mother of a 25 year old son struggling with mental health, the step mother of 3 teenagers with whom my relationship with has always been strained,and the daughter/ daughter in law to 4 parents all turning or about to turn 80 this year. Most of the time I feel like I’m losing my mind, but manage to keep it together on the surface. I know that many people have it way worse than I do, and I feel guilty a lot of the time because I have a decent job, a decent house, a good family and can’t seem to pull myself out of the constant stress I feel stemming from the need to always “make the magic happen” for everyone in my life. Is it wrong that I should feel so… I’m not even sure what the emotion is…when I do everything I can to make sure my family is well taken care of, but I can’t feel anything but exhausted and yes..sometimes resentment that I can’t take such good care of myself?