grew out the fuckass haircut, lost body fat and, thus, face fat, “ate my skincare” (whole/single-ingredient foods), got lip filler, started regularly threading my eyebrows, just generally taking care of myself after always putting others first. i lowkey turned aesthetics into a special interest, and now i am reaping the benefits of an improved healthy lifestyle 🙂↕️
i lifted 4-5x a week on the left, too, but i ate like shit, so you couldn’t tell. i also mayyyybe got 3-4k steps a day. i just got fed up that my work in the gym was not visible because i couldn’t apply my strength-training discipline to my diet discipline.
sucked it up and ate in a small caloric deficit for about a year. 155g protein, 60-70g fats, and 250-300g carbs. mostly whole foods but 1-2 free meals weekly for dates or outings. weeks without tracking every couple months if i was on vacation. CONSISTENCY > PERFECTION. if you have a meh eating day (or four), just get right back on plan as if it didn’t happen and don’t spiral—this was my exact vice in the past. i also made 10k steps a non-negotiable. i have a garmin streak that i cannot break; i genuinely cannot remember the last time i didn’t get 10k steps. cardio was 3-4x a week for 30 mins on the stairmaster or incline walking.
after i was content with the fat loss, i built my calories back up and dropped my cardio. i’m currently eating around 350-375g carbs, 70-80g fats, and 155g protein and only continuing my step goal. i’ll do a cardio sesh here and there when i feel like it just bc it feels good to do it.
i learned if you eat good, clean food, you will see just how much you get to really eat!! not to mention the gut health and mental health benefits from fueling your body quality & quantity. oh and the GLOWY SKIN!! the phrase “eat your skincare” is SO real because my skin was at its worst back then due to my primarily fried and/or processed diet.
and last, LIFT HEAVY OR D¡E!
(i always take it as a compliment btw! im cis but i love my trans baddies 🙂↕️)
anyway, i was an anti-social nerd growing up and remained that way through college. once i entered the real world, however, i quickly learned the power of looks aka the social currency. as such, i underwent a series of glow-ups over time that has resulted in me looking more conventionally attractive.
while these changes did introduce me to pretty privilege, they did also introduce me to trans allegations. i frequently get asked if i was born a man, and what’s crazier is that it is mostly by trans women!
i wonder if my autism kinda took the glow ups too far in a way that makes my femininity come off as “performative” (for lack of a better term)? so it comes off as if i’m trying too hard to prove i’m a woman? idk. but tbh being a girl with autism lowkey feels like i am always proving my girlhood anyway…
has anyone else with a hyperfocus on their looks/aesthetics dealt with this, or is this just a me thing?