u/man_of_inaction_

So here's the full story (skip to last para after ** where I actually asked for advice if you're not interested. I wrote all this just coz I can't be this honest IRL with someone, contains a lot of stupidity).

I was doing fine till 10th, gave boards in march 2020, but then covid came and my schooling switched to online, and same for 12th but I passed both 10th and 12th with 85% and 83% resp. After that I tried to move abroad but then later dropped that plan, since I took this decision late, I missed the next year's CUET date as well, an Entire year dropped.

Now in june 2023 I enrolled in CA Foundation, and also enrolled on SOL DU BCOM prog. I cleared foundation in first attempt and then started for intermediate, and this is where the onset of my academic depression began.

Early signs were the same as everyone else, Paid no attention in classes for the next 6 months, doomscrolled 24/7 watched p*rn regularly, no time management, and an absolutely shitty diet and fitness routine. I had 4 months after my classed ended to prepare for my Jan25 attempt so I registered for both groups. However, the ill effect of my habits were so severe I couldn't even sit in front of a book for more than 2 minutes. So I relied heavily on youtube revisions but again, paid 0 attention. By the time there were 10 days left for my exams, I knew I was gonna fail but a part of me was still in denial. I sat through all 6 exams and scored a total of 175/600. (95+80)

Of course everyone was shocked since studies was the only thing I was at least half decent at. I decided to sit for G1 in may25 and again relied on youtube revisions but joined a library for a month, and even though I relied on youtube alone without any writing practice. I failed again but scored 129 this time with no change in law marks, but did improve in Accounts and tax.

For september25 I enrolled in Audit EOB from Neeraj Arora and Law EOB from Shubham Singhal, and again joined a library for 2 months. This time I actually studied a little bit from the books directly but still very little writing practice. I scored 276 (150+126) and finally managed to clear G1 courtesy some grace marks in law, missed a cost exemption by 1 mark, and increased my audit score from 18 in jan to 34 in sep25 (FMSM went from 27 to 33), again I could've scored more but didn't study effectively.

I again purchased Rishabh jain's EOB because I found his SM revision lecture good during my sep attempt and then decided to watch his revisions on yt. But this time I got complacent again, I decided not to join a library this time (huge mistake honestly) and decided to just study at home. My bad habit got amplified again due to me sitting in my room 24/7 because I have like, 1 non CA friend whom I meet like once every 2 months so I had no socialization. I think you know where this is going. no writing practice again, and I only managed to score 132, got even less in costing than sep25 but increased 5 in audit and 3 in FMSM. By this time even my parents were recommending me to leave CA and consider MBA.

I decided to appear again in may26 because 1. My bcom cgp sucked atp (5.5) and I didn't know If I would be eligible for and MBA; and 2. I wanted to actually study properly as because understanding was not an issue, effort was, basically it was kinda an ego issue. I decided to enroll in a library for 2 months, actually tracked my hours for those 2 months, memorized from the book, practices question in all 4 subjects. And lo and behold, 208/300 (81/69/58). I actually ended up clearing with good marks so there some confidence restored.

I am left with my IT which will be over by 29/7. The reason I didn't do it earlier is because I was not sure of my result so enrolled now. But what after IT is what I am actually kinda nervous about, mainly the interviews. ATP I cleared my 12th like, 4 years ago and have nothing but fnd and intermediate since, not even some internships or shit, I was sitting at home this entire time. I have ONE bcom exam left of sem 6 which I will have to appear for next year because I missed it last month.

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Now here's what I need advice for. I have one month until I start applying for interviews because I've decided to leave my bad habits and need to improve my communication before I sit in an interview. So what I wanna know is :

What are my chances in big20?

How do I prepare for the interview and improve my communication and speaking skills in general?

What resources helped you if you were in this situation?

What specific knowledge should I possess about the domains which will be asked in the interview?

What other questions are asked in a BIG20 interview?

Are there any resources on line to prepare myself for an interview?

Should I register for finals and try to knock SPOM off the list before I join articleship?

TLDR: 5 inter attempts, IT pending, 12th cleared in 2022, no communication skills, no work-ex, how do I prepare for the articleship interview (big20 specifically), how do i make connections in general irl?

I am doing BCOM prog from SOL and today was my last exam of sem 6. First of all who tf sets a hindi exam at 9 in the morning?? Bc last time 8th me padhi thi hindi. Anyways, thing is that some of my exams which were set in morning previously were set at 9:30 AM. So I assumed the same for today and didn't bother to double check the admit card to be sure. Lo and behold, I am now running late for my last ever DU SOL exam (still assuming that it starts at 9:30) hoping just to reach there somehow before 10. Came out of the metro station and sat in the E-rikshaw at around 9:33 taking a sigh of relief that I made it in time. Then another guy came and sat in the auto and then I started talking to him and bro said that his hindi exam was at 9 and I was like "Man they aren't gonna let you enter" and then just told him that mine was at 9:30 and that was that. 2 mins later some neurons fired in my brain to trigger some paranoia and I just decided to check my own card again AND GGs SEE Y'ALL NEXT YEAR AGAIN 😭😭😭

Mad? frustrated? disappointed? annoyed? Idek what I'm feeling since morning lol.