u/manicmommy8

i’m 24 F and have been single for a while. i have dated many genders and it all ends the same way: i never feel the same. i always tell myself maybe the next one will be different, but it never is. i mistake alterous attraction for romantic attraction and end up breaking hearts, which i feel so guilty about bc the person i am dating at the time is always romantically attracted to me.

i have many good friends that fill the gaps in my life, but when they get partners, they always spend more time with them than with me. which is fine, because they deserve to have a happy and fulfilling relationship with their partners. but sometimes it feels like i’m forgotten, or that i am an afterthought.

and it makes me afraid that when ALL of my friends get a partner, i will just be forgotten entirely. that i’ll just have nobody who wants to spend time with me every day. i have my family, but they’re all much older than me. what will happen when they die? will i just be alone forever, when everyone else has moved on from their lives?

this is what i often think about. and it’s thoughts like this that make me impulsively seek people out on dating apps, just hoping maybe i’m not aroace.

but i’m already certain i’m asexual, so the chances of me being aromantic with all things considered is pointing to that i am.