u/masonistweaking

I'm looking for a bag and some shoes as my last sneakers fell apart n they were pretty girly plus my current backpack is actually my mum's and I nabbed it from her.

I just don't know what things the average man would wear.

I sort of want to get a messenger bag, but do guys actually use messenger bags??

This is difficult for me because I'm autistic so I honestly don't know what people typically wear and what would be seen as odd.

for shoes I picked out some black and white puma sneakers, and for a backpack, do I just pick something plain and black?

I mostly wear black comfortable clothes like sweatpants and shirts as pretty much everything I own is black (with accents of red or white sometimes)

If I picked a black messenger bag that's advertised as mens, am I gonna look stupid without knowing it?

also please give any other advice for accessories like jewellery n whatnot

went to my gp because I've been on 90mg of testosterone for two weeks now. I asked for a blood test for the sake of harm reduction and I had to explain myself n reassure my doctor that I did a lot of research and that I understood the risks. I get that they have to discourage me from continuing but they refused to check my hormone levels at all which doesn't stop me, but just means I'm doing it in the dark without supervision.

they're offering me one blood test to check my overall health because I've never had one done before. it's just to check liver function n kidney function, full blood count, iron levels and stuff like that.

but otherwise they're leaving me high n dry and I get that I should've expected that but I am so so poor man 💔💔 I cannot afford private blood tests I have like £150 of disposable income a month and half of that is going towards self care.

basically I need to know if there's anything affordable I can buy online just to check t levels n maybe also e levels.

(on the bright side I am already getting little voice cracks which is so damn entertaining like I can't hit some high notes anymore and I can also make this really low rumbling sound lmao)

I finally was able to start t man I've been wanting this for so long 💔 I found it pretty easy and painless besides an ache in my leg afterwards which honestly while it was all exciting it is a tad underwhelming after years of waiting for this very mundane thing. It's relieving to know I have it now, but also I've immediately become impatient. I won't see changes for months still.

Despite that it's still life saving to have access to this now :)

lmk what I should expect. (I've done plenty of research obviously and I know everything there is to know but I'd still like to hear from people who've experienced it themselves)

I know it's recommended to, but I haven't talked to my gp at all about my gender dysphoria or even a preference in pronouns because every time I go it's usually a different person. I'm just worried that whoever I tell won't approve of what I am, and although they can't verbalise any biases, they can certainly turn me down and refuse to do blood tests.

I live in a town full of the elderly and they're like 90% of the patients at my gp so they're definitely not used to handling me - especially when half the time I show up with some mental problem and not a physical one.

I just have quite bad anxiety and telling a stranger this sort of thing really scares me, but I doubt I could buy those blood tests kits at home as I'm very short on money.

I think i was scammed somehow?? I don't know how and I'm so stressed. I made an order for test e, I picked the most reliable place I could with good reviews n it all seemed fine based on the research I did. I paid £55 via bank transfer to some personal account which I was sent the info for from their official email and WhatsApp account. It mentioned in the message that I should send proof to the sales email to confirm, but when I tried to it bounced and came back with "adress not found"

so I sent multiple emails to their customer service email, I sent WhatsApp messages but they've all been ignored. I didn't do anything wrong, I included my order number in the reference, I didn't take too long, I paid the money and yet three days later my order is still processing and no one is getting back to me. I picked the most popular and reliable website in my country based off that one ranking website idk how this happened but I just can't afford to lose 55 quid, have nothing to show for it and then not have the money to try again somewhere else :(

I'm buying my first vial and I am absolutely shitting myself idk it feels so sketchy and I'm so worried I'm going to get scammed somehow. I deep dived into the best websites, then the best brands so I should be good but it just feels so nerve wracking. I was excited before but now I feel like I can't chill until it arrives and even then what if it doesn't work?

I gotta buy needles too and it's all so complicated but there is no reality where I could afford private healthcare. I could be waiting for many more years for that and I just can't wait anymore.

I don't know a thing about Bitcoin. I genuinely don't understand a thing about it, like idk how it's bought or where it's bought or how to purchase stuff with it. do I need to learn to purchase T? I will if I have to, but if a website has bank transfer and is rated highly, is it safe to just buy T that way? I'd rather just use my card but I fear I'll be scammed and nothing will come. I really don't have the money not to receive something. I'm broke af and I have no other option but to DIY, so I suppose I wanna know if Bitcoin is the safest way to go about it.

can anyone tell me what I should be looking for in regards to needles? I have no fear of using them, I just don't know a thing about sizes and the different types, and I'm not sure where to get them or how to use them.

also a little unrelated, but can you switch up what kind of testosterone you're using? like using testosterone enanthate for a while and then switching to testosterone cypionate?

i'm uk based btw