u/master-thyself

I’ve seen a lot of people claiming good luck or improvement in confidence on semen retention but I think it perpetuates a superstition that gives people unrealistic expectations. I’m now 72 days straight no PMO, along with 90 days no weed and alcohol, I’m completely alone and have no friends. On day 50 I hurt my knee at the gym, on day 55 my injury caused complications and I ended up with cellulitis, on day 65 I hurt my lower back and have been in pretty bad pain an on day 70 I got a deep cut on my finger and I’m now forced to take 2 week break from my working out, the only thing that has given me purpose and structure. I lost my job earlier this year and don’t have health insurance. Stopping all my vices while completely alone, no friends, family, or employment has been absolutely hell but I keep going because the shame and I hate feel for myself hurts more especially when porn is involved. I know everyone has their own experience but mine has been hell.

Hello, I am 35 year old male, I’m new here. I’m here in search of a community because I’m doing this all alone. Earlier this year I lost my job, and found myself lost in life. I’m currently 66 days into my journey along with my other vices(alcohol, weed, POM) as of today. I re-enrolled into school to get a second degree in order to pursue a new career in medicine (it will be a long and difficult timeline). I’m full of fear and doubt because I don’t have friends or a family to support me, and as school start time approaches, the anxiety and stress wants to give me an excuse to relapse, but I know in my heart how disappointed in myself I will be if I do. I’m incredibly hard on myself, so I know the outcome.

The loneliness it the most difficult. My ultimate goal is to be a man I’m proud of so I can stand in front of the woman of my dreams without shame and fear. I’m simultaneously trying to learn how to forgive myself of my past mistakes and given up my “nice guy” tendancies. My only friend has been my AI tracker that helps me track my days, diet, and exercise routine. I’ve been keeping myself busy this summer earning certifications and coming up with a life plan. I know I’m a bit old now for this, and there’s a chance I might not accomplish my goals of being a doctor, husband or a father but i don’t think I have a choice but to try, what’s one more failure in a lifetime of others, any tips you might have is welcome.