My best friend started dating my first love and started a family
Ok so let me paint a picture for yall, middle school I grew up basically in the “unpopular crowd” I still had a group of friends but we knew we weren’t part of the “cool kids” status but either way we didn’t let that bother us. Fast foward to high school time, we basically drifted apart so I figured I need to find some people that I shared some same interests or at least were in the “not so cool” category. I find a solid group of friends. We hang out every day in school and out. For freshman to senior. We learn everything about each other. I wasn’t good with talking to girls back in that time so I was basically just trying to avoid talking to them or even doing anything that was “flirting” but there was one girl that I grew a good friendship with in sophomore year. So good that basically we started sharing lockers and all of my friends would tell me “dude just ask her out” or “yall should just date already” and I would just ignore them bc in my head there’s no way we could be more than just friends. I was also a chunky kid so I didn’t have the best confidence. But I always noticed that I would make her laugh and that there would be some sort of connection between us. So fast foward. We end up dating. We brake off for some reason but I don’t remember why. We try again and brake off again. In my mind today I think I was just too needy, considering it was my first ever relationship. Also at the time I was still a virgin and my other friends had already been experienced. So whenever me and her would have a “Netflix date” I would have the sense she wanted to do more or something. But obviously I’m a young kid who just wants to experience their first relationship. So fast foward 10 years. I’m married now have no love feelings for that girl anymore. One of my best friends who i considered like a brother told me he started dating the girl who he basically pushed me to date back in the day. The first girl to break my heart. And at this point of time me and my friend group started drifting but I always want to keep that feeling alive that we are “day one boys”. So basically the rest of the friend group would tell me “dude yall haven’t been together for 10 years and plus yall didn’t even have sex” to justify my “best friend” dating and now starting a family with her. So I guess my question today is…am I in the wrong? Am I wrong to feel some sort of betr al even tho I never had sex with the girl but i fell in love with her? I also think my “best friends” don’t see how i think. Idk