u/mediumpace07

I am 50 now, too lazy to do Poshmark, and no way I’ll ever fit in size 0,2,4 pieces. 😩I don’t necessarily want to sell them, I’d like to just give to a new owner. If there’s interest I’m happy to take some pics.
Also eff JCrew for 86’ing the Tippi. Best selling staple of all time & they stop producing it. Wtf? Current designer is super unimpressive. Terrible, F.

I’m 50, on HRT (1mg Estradiol gel only), hysterectomy Feb, 2024, still have ovaries. On Wellbutrin & Cymbalta. I take all the recommended supplements (magnesium etc)
I’ve been in peri since I was 40. No pregnancies.
Worst depression of my life. It’s ruining said life. A traumatic car wreck (motorcyclist hit me going 75 mph & died on impact, car on fire, I had no physical injuries) followed by COVID kicked peri into overdrive 3.5 years ago. Nothing is helping my depression & anhedonia. I did the new 1-day TMS protocol almost 7 weeks ago.

But mornings…mornings are guttural, primal sobbing and super low mood. Lasts about 4-5 hours then I feel a little better. Ruins the entire day & exhausts me.
Tried a little estrogen at night to see if it helped mornings. No luck.
Anyone else experience this? Know anyone who is? I can’t get answers from doctors.
Advice, suggestions, theories are welcome.
Apologies for the crappy sentence structure -I’m typing through a curtain of tears.