Really want to get high on xans again because the girl i love doesnt want to be with me://
Hey guys.
Im 19/M, i never was too deep into xans / benzos, my main addiction was alcohol, but now im sober from that since 304 days ago.
Ive been using xans “responsibly”, by that i mean i never got high on it for the fun, only for like a week but after that i used it as prescribed.
Now the girl i like (we only know eachother online, never met irl, but she said she lives in the same town as me), said to me that she doesnt want to meet irl, because she cant do irl meeting eachother.
So it sucks, and now i could get high, just to forget this. Sadly tomorrow i have school, so yeah…
Today i took my prescribed xan, and i want to get high tomorrow. But if i get high idk how i’ll do school, i mean i wont do insane dose, only around 1 mg because that makes me high and i wont blackout from it.
Originally i planned to get drunk, but i cant do that because i literally vomit / puke out the alcohol everytime i tried to drink after i got released from the psych ward where they helped me get off of alcohol.
So idk why im writing this, i guess i just want some sort of help or anything to not relapse:((
Now im around a month “sober” from xanax (aka not intentionally getting high, only taking it as prescribed)