Sometimes I feel irritated thinking, 'Gosh why did I put so much effort to who consistently blocked me' but then I immediately think, 'I surrender'.
I accept whatever I think. I could love him, I could miss him, I could be irritated, I could be angry. He made me grow. It's been more than 2 years but I feel like I had 10 years of growth. I feel thankful.
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Yesssss
With 2 of wands, I could also think he might be thinking of going abroad together. (based on our context) I can also feel the hat that page of cups is wearing is also exotic.
Also got 3 of wands on the bottom of the deck, which makes it clearer.
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At first I thought it is a wheelchair with woman but then I realised... it looks like rudolph and santa claus in the sky!!!
And I also see (quite obvious to me) a man flying up to the sky like superman!
Last picture, I see a tied rope... I feel like it means we are connected.
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Normally I don't pay attention to how I sprinkled it but I saw a heart in it ❤️
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I'm a beginner 😅
According to the research it says
10 diamonds: thinking about financial stability
2 hearts : thinking about the union.
2 clubs : analzing, thinking a lot. weighing options.
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He has been setting his boundaries, not opening his mind, refusing me. I believe he's been neglecting his own feelings too.
2 of diamonds seems like a good omen, like finally a message.
6 of diamonds seems there could be some kind of a progress.
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I'd be really surprised if somebody could guess the city.
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I'm 28 and I found love in 26-27. I was wondering is this the age that I get engaged..
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I see a clear seahorse here!! I wonder what's next to the seahorse. I can just think of the letter T.
I see a tree also on the bottom. Question was what is he thinking about me at the moment.
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This one is oriental drawing tarot from Korea. I only have major cards because they were selling only major at that time. Now there's a full deck but it's really too expensive.
Interesting thing is tower card is not broken in this deck. Looks strong enough to handle the thunder.
I pulled thinking what he thinks about me at the moment. Looks quite a lot is happening in his head. I'm happy with tower card because nothing has been happening between us. Any action is welcomed.
Question. Are my writings on internet helpful for our relationship?
I've been writing for ages, consistently about how dedicated and committed I am, even though he has been rejecting me.
According to my research:
7 of hearts : deep emotional intensity. feeling overwhelmed with his options
jack of clubs : young man with curiosity, intellectually stimulating
5 clubs : willingness to take action, restless energy around the connection
So it's good that I've been consistently writing.
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Question: Does he knows that I was jealous at that time? (It was years ago)
Past : King of wands. I think he knew it
Present : 6 cups. thinks about it
Future : 8 cups. not wanting to think about it
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Question: how does he thinks about my career
I'm a freelancer but I don't have much work at the moment. I think he could also sense it but also knows I'm talented.
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I'm new with this... I assume Queen of hearts could be like Queen of cups in tarot, artistic and sensitive.
