Also, I found out that I could get a discount on capital bikeshare for getting medicaid lol
I still get nervous sharing the road with cars, but I’m sure I’ll get better.
I only started learning how to ride a bike recently and tried out an E-Bike on a trail! Im not experienced enough to ride on roads.
Where I’m going to uni, I can’t have a car the first year, and the public transit off campus is horrible. I have balance, coordination, and convergence problems for which I go to vision therapy for and why its been so difficult for me to ride a bike.
Ironically, the nearest vision therapy place that takes medicaid to my university isn’t in walking distance, nor can I get there by bus.
This is the farthest I’ve made on any bike, and way further than I’ve gone on any pedal bike, but I still fell a bunch on the way at sharp turns, the sight of other people, and stopping as soon as I start going down hill.
I imagine this is normal just out of nervousness, but I also use so much physical force in my arms and upper body to keep myself balanced, or give myself the idea of such. 😅
I still have difficulty even getting myself started, but I can get myself going after a few tries. The general advice of looking ahead instead of the ground has been helpful.
Longer detailed context/rant to add on: https://www.reddit.com/r/evilautism/s/wnKtPsVsyS
I didn’t match for this Scholarship program in December, and thought that was the end. I planned on electrocuting myself on the metro rails yesterday, my graduation day, after the rejection, since I had made finalist, did everything possible to be “competitive,” and still didn’t make it. I slashed my upper leg a lot the day I got rejected and cried so hard since college acceptances with financial aid are the only way I can escape my mom. CPS did nothing, and I will be killed if I try again.
I could always go to community college, but I cannot bear living with my mom or potentially juggling homelessness and studies.
Despite all this, I held on and got full rides to a bunch of unis anyways around march. Some offered to fly me out too. At the uni I committed to attend, they had a summer preorientation program, and I got accepted to that as well, so I just have to endure until july.
I can be gay, take ADHD medication, spill milk, stim spinning my arms around myself, express my interests, not believe in god, and my mom can’t hurt me anymore.
If you can’t see, the first image is all most of my acceptance letters, the 2nd image are my discharge papers from my last attempt in 10th grade, and the 3rd and 4th photos are letters from admissions officers talking about my interest in linguistics.
When I initially applied, I was definitely sure I was going to major in linguistics, and some engineering major, however when I looked through the major selection, I thought that you couldn't major across schools, and I really enjoy CS a lot anyways, so I applied as a BACS & Linguistics major to the college.
I later found out talking with a friend that I could actually major across schools, and given the job market for CS, idk if I want to stay in CS or do CompE or some other engineering major. I know that I will do some engineering (adjacent) major, and probably linguistics (or minor if rigor of engineering major is too much), so I've been looking into transferring into the E-School.
The only things I have left to do to transfer are Calculus 3, Physics 1 Lecture (Apparently my AP exam covers lab), and Chemistry 1 lecture and lab. None of the classes offered at Hoos Getting Ready would cover these prerequisites, and I'll get financial aid to cover CC classes to do chemistry 1 and calc 3 over the summer (I plan to do physics 1 at UVA, since I want to rest over summer). Could I just do all these fall semester if I want to do Hoos getting ready?
I did see something about changing your school before starting classes by emailing admissions, but I emailed them a while ago, and received no response. I also emailed the E-school and received no response, so I'm assuming it's too late for that.
TW: mentions of planned suicide and mention/brief description of self harm.
>!I got a full ride to really good public school in here in the US by surprise in late January, which followed a scholarship rejection in early December, so it really brightened me up. !<
>!I wasn't mentally well after the scholarship rejection since I made finalist and had a good chance, so I had a lot of hope and it was all destroyed. I fell back horribly, slashing my upper thighs frequently w/ paper, and I've always planed on killing myself after graduation because I can't bear to live with my mom for community college and I didn't think I had the academic stats to get a full ride to a proper uni with dorms.!<
>!Now, I rarely slash myself if ever, and I don't plan on killing myself after graduation, but I still get thoughts on it a lot. I don't think I'm a danger to myself anymore, but I expected to be more happy that I'm about to leave my mom. I certainly am, and like I said, I'm not killing myself, but having those thoughts frequently still isn't ideal.!<