Gusto ko ng kausap 😭
30F housewife with no kids.
2024 and 2025 have been my rock bottom. Savings are gone. Debts are piling up. I hate 2024 and 2025. My husband is the one keeping our savings because of my impulsive buying, but I still managed to get it and gamble it.
I didn’t confess to my husband that I was addicted to online gambling. I needed to stop because I realized that even asin wala kaming pambili we had no money for essentials, my husband was already confused, but I still didn’t tell him my problem. I was so afraid, I just told him I bought something unimportant. Good thing God really loves me, I think that time. Friends I owed money to told me that I didn’t need to pay them, it was just a gift for me. I am so thankful for them. Because they are rich. In October 2025, I promised myself and God that I would not do it anymore; I need to save and be a better person. Then a good opportunity came; my husband got relocated here in Makati, so we had to move from QC to Makati. It’s a great opportunity for us with a higher salary and good benefits. A perfect way to change. From October 2025 up to July 2026, I was clean. In July 2026, my godfather gifted me an iPhone 15; I said this phone is a blessing from above. I will not use it for gambling. Come August, I needed 25k for our insurance and other car necessities, but my savings weren’t enough. Then the dumbest thought came to my mind. I gambled my savings. All gone! I asked my friend to lend me 25k, and she agreed. I gambled it again, thinking I could win it all back and then stop. Instead of just losing 5k, now I owe 50k. 25k to my friend and 25k for things I need to pay.
I’m so dumb! I just sat there blankly all afternoon.