It wasn't depression, it was burnout
Yesterday my mind was blown. I'm finally getting my diagnosis after years of back and forth, the psychiatrist was asking a few questions about my mental state and asked about depression. I said that I have had several episodes throughout my life, described the symptoms and then she asked me if I ever lost interest in my hobbies during that time. That's when I realized that actually, no I hadn't, every time I was depressed I would instead get really into something specific to help me cope.
Apparently that's ADHD burnout, the symptoms are practically the same as depression, except the presence of Anhedonia.
This was unexpectedly validating and eye opening. I thought I'd share with you guys, in case it helps any of you figure your shit out.