u/mhsreddit04

So, today I did my first ever true reading on myself and I asked the deck how I could heal my relationship with my mother. I’ve been emotionally neglected coming up, forced to grow up quicker than most, and made the emotional scapegoat/punching bag for my mother and other family members. I chose to do a simple six-card spread since I’m a beginner.

First pull: Six of Wands, Ace of Cups reversed, and 3 of Cups reversed

Interpretation:

(6 of Wands) Celebrate yourself for your efforts at creating a better life even when others may not recognize it.

(Ace of Cups reversed) Also don’t be too emotionally available.

(3 of Cups reversed) Remove yourself entirely from your current environment.

My second query was what should I do to expedite my moving out process since I’ve been at my wit’s end in this environment. For added context, I have been in a heightened sense of reactivity due to not feeling heard by those closest to me, who continue to be the source of my anger but gaslight me about it when it’s mentioned.

Second Pull: King of Cups, The Hanged Man, and The Magician reversed

Interpretation:

(King of Cups) You must slow down and channel your emotions properly.

(The Hanged Man) Ground yourself and think of possible solutions.

(The Magician reversed) You cannot properly manifest when emotionally dysregulated.

What are your thoughts?

So, for context, I’m a pretty bright, handsome young man (22) who’s never had an issue making friends or just being an overall likable person to many. However, as I got older, I started to attract more and more monitoring spirits in my life in the workplace, school and even within my family. Sometimes I would even catch wind of “beefs” that others would have with me, and my name coming up in social circles that I’m not in. I just wanna live! HALP! 😂😭