Internal conflicts about meat/dairy.
Heya all,
Just want to say I need some help as I'm struggling mentally with some internal conflicts.
I was vegetarian from about 11 to about 23 years old. I then transitioned to eating meat products as I felt my quality of life - restrictions, missed opportunities and constantly thinking about when/what I can eat. It became all too much and I felt like living a miserable life isn't worth vegetarianism. I feel selfish for this.
But I was eating meat etc again but only thought about where it came from again recently. I was so upset about how animals are bread and slaughtered. So my husband and I made the decision that buying into the industry but getting more ethical practices for meats would be best than cutting it all out. Also, maybe cut down on the beef and pork as chicken is healthier. I don't eat much meat anyway just occasional burgers or pizza toppings. I still eat a lot of vegetarian stuff as I like how it tastes.
But now I got thinking about milk and how we keep cows pregnant. So we then decided to buy milk from a local farm who focuses on cow happiness (it also has milk/shake vending 24/7).
I'm not trying to guilt anyone and I don't mind what others eat. But I seem to have been thinking about it randomly 3 years on. I really love cheese too and I really internalise and guilt myself. I want to find a way I can still go about my life without thinking I'm a bad person.
My husband also grew up in his grandpa's small family farm and he's feeling bad about contributing to it.
Any advice would be really nice ❤️