u/mohalbtatt

Hello everyone,

I never imagined I’d reach this stage in my life, yet here I am, desperate and unsure of what will happen next. It feels like I’m waiting for a miracle to change everything. I’m 17 years old with big dreams and ambitions. I love filmmaking and programming, and I’ve even created applications that have contributed to my community—projects that few can achieve, especially at my age. I’m an avid reader and passionate about learning.

I was born into a relatively wealthy family, yet I suffer from extreme loneliness. At school, I feel looked down upon and invisible. Despite my achievements, people in my class constantly belittle me. I try to be social, but no one wants to talk to me, which causes a deep emotional pain. I’ve always taken pride in my accomplishments and the praise I received from people older than me, but returning to the school environment, my grades are poor. This angered my parents and added even more pressure. I fear my future may be wasted, that I could end up in a job I don’t want, and that all my dreams might collapse because of my low grades.

I also struggle with an addiction to pornography—a form of escape I’ve tried to overcome for years but feel trapped in a vicious cycle. I used to be liked and known at school, but now I’m isolated, which has fueled my sense of worthlessness. I would hide in the bathrooms during breaks so no one would see me alone. Every day I feel myself falling apart, and I don’t know what to do. My only hope is for a miracle to change everything.