u/mono_valley

I’m 56, male, and a sexual trauma survivor. My ex wife divorced me 6 years ago when I wouldn’t agree to an open marriage and she cheated. Then I had an off / on relationship for two years with an emotionally and physically abusive woman with mental illness who also cheated.

I’m chronically lonely and work evenings and weekends. I can’t drink anymore due to health issues. I’ve been depressed for a long time and lack motivation to do basic things. I’m also likely autistic but not diagnosed. When I reach out on social media I mostly get told what is wrong with my attitude and lectured. I feel that this has mostly to do with me being an older, white, cis-appearing man, even though I am gender non-conforming.

I sometimes find it hard to keep going in a world where I don’t understand the unwritten social rules. I feel like I’m stuck in an endless loop because I need new experiences but I feel like people shun me because I appear negative or off-putting to them.

Also, all of this may just be in my head and I don’t know how to change it. I am genuinely resentful, jaded, and cynical. The world is going to hell and I focus on my inevitable death alone in my house with my cats.

Some days I am fine and none of this even matters.

How do I meet people? I attend groups but the groups are mainly about enabling people to be independent or building faith communities. They are not in any way social or focused on real connections.

I was not a fan of Reality the first time I heard it. I did not like the production at all. The exceptions were that I loved New Killer Star and Bring Me the Disco King. I didn’t like the instrumentation on the George Harrison cover.

However, I absolutely loved the DVD. His band here is top notch. The performance has a warm feeling and a strong emotional impact for me. Usually when I like a concert DVD, I don’t like the CD as much. But this is a very strong performance and I love listening to the CD as well.

Does anyone else prefer the live versions of the Reality songs?

So, having listened to Make-Up is a Lie quite a bit, I can say it is one of his strongest albums.

Which leads me to question whether many people on the internet are just swayed by the media telling them Morrissey isn’t good.

I see people write a lot about “Morrissey stans” propping up bad music, but I think the people saying this have probably just had some Kool-Aid.

I have just about all the original versions of the songs on Toy except Shadow Man, Hole in the Ground, and the “You’ve Got a Habit of Leaving” single.

If I wanted to get that single on CD, should I go for the Manish Boys / Davy Jones EP or the Early On CD, which is more expensive than the EP?

Keep in mind I already have the Pye Singles.

I would still be missing some songs from Early On (about 6 I think) if I got the EP instead.

I got my ticket to the Fort Worth date. I’ve seen him 3 times and he hasn’t canceled yet on me.

Is anyone else going to this show? Would anyone like to meet up at a public place beforehand? It’s my day off.