u/moonnie_404

This drawing is from a few months ago, I never finished it, I just focused on drawing daby lol

I think I improved the shading, I didn't finish drawing the drink out of laziness

Lately I've started to have feelings for a guy, he's very cute and sometimes I think about approaching him and talking to him, I even asked my coworkers who have experience in that for advice, and sometimes I imagine talking to him or that something happens between him and me, but then I remember how horrible I look and how awkward I can be, I even think that if I talk to him, I might make him uncomfortable with my mere presence

After that, I start thinking more and more that I don't deserve to be loved, that I'm too ugly to deserve a partner, and even though some say I'm pretty, I don't think that's enough to make someone like me. I feel like whenever I try to be nice or pretty, I just end up making them uncomfortable, not to mention that I'm such a boring person that I don't think anyone would want to be with me just because my daily life is so basic.

I feel like George's eye was too small for me

Honestly, I don't know anything about this topic—or about being a "femcel"—but I’ll share the experiences that make me think that way. I’ve felt like a total loser for a long time; I just spend my time in my room playing visual novels, reading fanfics, drawing, or simping over male anime characters. I hate socializing, and even though I have a job, I don't have any friends. I also feel like my mother and sister hate me or view me as weird; they always avoid talking to me, and when I do speak, they mock me as if I were some damn freak. My sister always looks down on me because she has a partner and is practically married to him, but I couldn't give a shit about her boyfriend—I’d choose to be alone for the rest of my life a thousand times over rather than be with that human eyesore. I admit I’ve had boyfriends, but they were only online relationships, and every single one of them treated me like crap. I also tried to find a partner in real life, but I got rejected by everyone. No matter how hard I tried to look good—experimenting with my own style and then with the styles men supposedly like—nobody was interested. Over the months, I started to feel revulsion toward men; now, I hate it when one approaches me or tries to talk to me. Honestly, I just don't like being near men. Anyway, I feel like this is getting too long; I just wanted to get someone's opinion.

I think I improved my traditional drawing style a bit

A drawing in traditional style, I haven't done it like this in a long time, I'm surprised it turned out well

Honestly, I feel like I'm very bad at coloring or doing shadows :(