u/mortnuit

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• diagnosed with bipolar disorder type 1 with psychotic features since i was 16.
• getting my free meds subsidised by the government. my meds are antipscyhotic and mood stabilisers :)
• can give you a feedback on how the education system reacted with my struggles.
• i also am able to work full time (even nung college pa ko)
• going in and out of the psychiatric hospitals nung time na nasa height ako ng depressive episodes ko.

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SW: 71kg (bmi is 28.1)
CW: 53kg (bmi is 21)
Dose: 2.5mg

-26 years old (when i started), 27 na ako
-took 5 months :)
-prediabetic. taas super ng sugar ko kaya i resorted na to this. naflag sya sa urinalysis and fbs ko
-asked internal med if i should consider tirze, she said i can proceed at my own risk
-i started and stayed at 2.5mg
-no weight stalls that lasted a week. usually three-five days constant weight then bababa na ulit :)
-i paired it with caldef (goal is around 1.2k-1.5k kcal, protein around 80g above)
-i do exercise and aims for at least 5k steps a day

went from size XL to size S! never felt happier. i reached my goal. my appetite is not fully suppressed but i am already aiming on increasing my kcal intake (1.7k-1.8k kcal) to maintain the weight. i checked my sugar last week and balik na sya sa normal. :D me and my supplier (she is a nurse) is planning to slowly lessen the dose na rin and see muna how my cravings will change. but i developed healthier habits so im looking forward.

i dont know how to cope the lost of not seeing the group that always pushed me to be the best version of myself. i literally had the album love yourself tattooed on my arm to stop myself from hurting myself. everyday, kayo naging happy pill ko. i keep listening to the music daily as a gentle reminder that i have place in this world and i am here to stay.

tanginang sistema. ilang beses na ko nakapasok sa website ng ticketmaster. may pera naman. may pera na ko. i saved up three years for this but for three days, bigo rin ako. kung saan saan na ko naghanap ng extra ticket (1 lang) to no avail.

how do you accept na hindi para sayo to when for more than a decade, you always had faith that they will be back.

sorry. now lang nag-rant. grabe na kasi iyak ko. papagod na ko. dito lang pala ako matatalo, bts hahaha.

sana naman the road will lead me to seeing you 7. sorry ang emotional. as someone that is going through a lot mentally, isa sila sa naging safe place ko.