u/mspeachhhy520

I have a chronic neurological condition to where I’m dizzy daily. It’s been here for 14 years and only getting worse.

I can’t function daily. My kids missed out on being kids because of me. I hate myself. I don’t dislike, I hate myself.

Everyday I ask God why me. Why do I have to go through this. What is my purpose? I can’t drive, I don’t go into stores alone and even when I do I feel like I’m going to die. It’s fucking miserable. I’m fucking miserable.

I hate my husband as well. His family isn’t enough for him to stop drinking and he’s definitely a trigger for me.

I don’t know what to do with my life. I hate myself. I hate my marriage and I am absolutely fucking useless. What purpose does one have ?! I work from home, I work 30 hours and miss 7 days a month from work due to FMLA. I LET everyone down.

I hate myself.

I(37 f) have a kidney stone (2nd one) that is said to be 4mm, stuck in the lower part of the ureter before it meets the bladder. Been there over a month if not longer. I don’t take Tamsulosin as iam scared of dizziness. The right side I passed in July was 6.5mm. I don’t know why this was is not budging. I do have kidney swelling as a result and now they say possibly a UTI. I have never had a uti, ever so I’m pretty bummed. Can any ladies tell me what they did to help ! Thanks.

Anyone know of any lost and found groups? Wallet was lost and trying to see if whom ever picked it up has posted.