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⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀hello guys ♪ ! as someone in the whole permashifting and respawning space, especially as a potential deathless respawner, I was wondering how to cope with the feeling of leaving everything behind, especially of loved ones? Since I'm planning on respawning (not even permashifting atp) since once I leave for good, I want to never come back or even have the ability come back in any circumstances. There's nothing I would really miss in this reality besides my parents and my family friend that helped me so much throughout the years which is why I'm asking this.

I know I'm not leaving them behind, especially as I'm deathless respawner and not death/traditional respawner. Like all I'm doing is shifting my awareness to my waiting room permanently and thats its, life here and my life too (for what you can call a "stand in") will continue. But its just so... hard. I know I'm technically not leaving them but it mentally feels like it. It's feels so bad to the point that I even conjured up another way which is to just shift to my waiting room and visit here time to time, waiting until I'm old or/and my loved ones naturally passed. But I don't really like it cause it's deadass just me waiting for my loved ones to die which is morbid as hell to me. Plus I don't want to be connected to this reality and wait for THAT long.

⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀all I'm just asking is for fellow respawners and permashifters who manage to make peace with themselves leaving this world behind, especially with loved ones they have possible attachments, to drop any advice or words cause I really want to respawn but I feel so guilty sometimes.

✧ imagine some random higher being coming down to you and saying you have to choose only one reality to shift to...

If you are permashifter or respawner this is going to be the reality that you will spend your entire life in. If you are a "normal shifter" this is the only reality where you get to shift to in the sense of shifting back in forth from this reality to your desired reality of your choosing. If you have to choose, which one would it be?

Me personally I would choose either my Honkai: Star rail dr, my whole honkai-verse slice of life au, or my waiting room/home reality. Most likely my Honkai: Star rail dr!

✦ 『 desired reality discussion 』 ───── waiting room based | Lowkey curious to see what's everyone's waiting room is! I personally see waiting rooms as one of the most important realities that a shifter could have and also can represent/show a shifter's personality, mind, and soul. Waiting rooms can be perfect for places to serve for scripting your drs (if you are the type to script), relax, heal, and can work as a "starter reality" for beginner shifters to script and focus on before any other reality.

Anyway 😅 going back on topic, what's your waiting room and what's certain things that make it unique?

I'll go first | my waiting room is complex and has alot of aspects to it, though i will try to explaim it in the simplest way I could.

The metaphysical charm that manifested into the physical world as not only charm but also as a "lone organ" that floated through the "void space" looking for a vessel to possess it as a heart. This metaphysical charm, also known as the core heart works as both a higher dimensional and imaginary concept but also a charm that's a replacement to the iconic lifa app (or should I say lifa charm in this context) that we all know of. The charm takes shape similar to those magical girl items and jewelry, specially those sailor moon brooches. It also acts like a "magical girl charm" also as it helps me with shifting and etc. To make this charm even more special, especially as it's a metaphysical and imaginary concept, is that inside the abstract heart/charm rests something I like to call my inner world ( that is my waiting room and home reality/base btw). Its my "headspace" materialized and manifested into the physical world just like charm. You can also say my charm is the only gateway or even "shell" to this said world. The inner world itself is inspired off by the elysian realm, amphoreus, studio ghibli and Makoto shinkai films, many locations from japan and china, and bee and puppycat + Steven universe sceneries! It's currently still in the works but that's the basis of it! I may do a official introduction on this forum when I finally done with it 😭.

( sorry for any grammar mistakes !)

For me, I'm currently using notion, Google docs, and pinterest for my half a waiting room and half home reality world that acts as my "home base".

Google docs as like the main part of the script for majority of the stuff, pinterest for the visualization, and Notion for the extra parts.

It's quite a big reality which is why the script spreads to 3 apps. I know it may seem alot but I'm someone who constantly overthinks and changes their drs, so I want a clear basis. Plus I personally want to be really detailed with this script as this is the only script I have to script in this reality in general. A while ago, I got an amazing idea to just script and focus on my waiting room in this reality so I can do the rest of my current drs AND the potential/soon-to-be future drs all in my waiting room.

It saves so much time and energy, all your scripts are safe in the comforts of said waiting room so you dont have to worry about someone potentially seeing them, all the resources available, you have all the time in the world to script them there, and etc. ٩(ˊᗜˋ*)و ♡

Anyway despite that, depending on the reality, I would choose between those 3 apps if I were to script in this reality but mainly notion and pinterest (I may use Google docs for story / worldbuilding aspects of it tho)

I'm someone who can get so easily irritated in this current reality. I mean, can you blame me? There is a lot of things to be mad at in this reality, especially if you were in my shoes. Though i realized recently that instead of me usually being consistently annoyed and upset with people and how things are in this reality, I've grown to be quite peaceful, especially with my new developed mentality of "this won't matter in the end since I'm going to leave soon anyway" thanks to me becoming a soon to be deathless/no-physical-death respawner (or atleast a permashifter, im still figuring out how I'm leaving this world behind right now 😅).

Like why am I getting all so worked up over this meaningless bullshit while I'm literally someone who plans to leave this reality behind at some point. Like there is better things to focus on, like idk, me trying to actually finish my scripts and shifting out of here than focusing whatever the nonsense that's pissing me off😭🙏

Like im a reality shifter who is also a future respawner for crying out loud, the last thing I should be doing is getting worked up by is this fuckass world/reality. Of course not to say it's bad to get angry or annoyed with this reality, but with not only just the concept of shifting as a whole but also the overall concept of just leaving everything behind... does it truly matter in the end of day? Like it will all be over soon, so don't think of it too much.

ֺ ✿ ₊ ֗    also small unnecessary thing but hiii! I'm philia, and I'm new to the whole r/shiftingrealities / reddit shifting community. I've been in the overall reality shifting community for like 3-4 years now but this is my first time genuinely interacting with this subreddit ^^