u/myselfwho

Guys, I'm (30F) afraid that my 19 year old sister is randomly starting to fake having autism. I'm not sure how to call it out, or if I even should, or if I am even accurate. I don't want to think she's faking. Personally, I feel annoyed to witness it and just simply don't acknowledge the "symptoms". She gets very upset very quickly when I am not accommodating her symptoms like if she is having a "breakdown" it's as if she wants me to baby her.

Okay so obviously I've known my sister her whole life. She's always had a very calm and stable manner of doing everything. Well, she now has her very first boyfriend, and along with this boyfriend came some very loud "symptoms" of "autism". Nobody in our family has ever been diagnosed with autism, but we do have bipolar in our family very heavily.

These symptoms include baby-like behavior, like needing a "blankie", needing headphones to do literally anything, unable to touch anything without gloves all of a sudden, needing help cooking the simplest meals since the cooking devices are too loud, and very exaggerated fake crying fits and exaggerated gagging at random objects. Among other things. I don't know. Can all of these symptoms be masked and then abruptly start showing like this? She was also caught in some lies not too long ago that she was being hit by a roommate, and admitted to this when family stepped in trying to help press charges or yell at the guy. She's only known that roommate for 2 months, he is her friends new boyfriend.

I don't know guys. It's embarrassing as fuck for me to watch. It pisses me off too. All of these symptoms escalate when she is around her boyfriend. I can't tell if she's just trying to convince him mostly or what. Does this all sound very weird to you guys? Should I take this seriously? How would you respond if your sibling randomly started claiming to be autistic and display symptoms that they've never had before?

EDIT: I've also asked our other siblings about this, and all of them were completely unaware that our sister was autistic. (5 siblings and we're all very close, I'm the oldest, the sister I am referring to in this post is the youngest)

Ovulation makes me (30F) crazy and not myself. Its so intense that I have to just force myself to STAY HOME. I start feeling extremely impulsive just wanting to do a bunch of self destructive stuff, like dangerous stuff, like jump off a bridge just to feel it, or get into a very nice cold lake in the middle of the night, It's also the safest thing for me to do is to just stay home because the impulsive feelings are intense and they feel like actual desires. It's almost like I become suicidal but not quite, and extremely sex craved like a feral animal. It makes me WANT men that I would usually be disgusted by, and sure enough after ovulation is over, I am disgusted with all of the feelings and thoughts I had while ovulating, and feel normal again. Does this happen to any of you? What the actual fuck is this? And it does NOT match my true self or values or desires at all whatsoever. Do you guys think this is normal or common? I was on Depo from age 15-27, did not have a period at all in those 13 years, and I've only had a regular cycle for about 3 years now. Maybe that has something to do with it. Well my cycle is very regular now like clockwork, which is helpful in knowing when I need to protect myself from the seemingly psychotic behavior and thoughts.

About how much of each category do you guys have? I'm trying to minimize as much as possible, as my life has been surrounded by too many options, and it's overwhelming. This is what I have, I'm curious as to how much other people have so I can figure out what is actually normal:

EDIT: I grew up in a family of hoarders, so STUFF makes me extremely anxious and I can't tell what is a normal amount to have. Growing up like that has made me feel as an adult overwhelmed by owning anything at all.

Jeans: 8

Sweat pants: 10

Flowy/Statement pants: 11

Shorts: 5

Short sleeve shirts: 13

Tank tops/crop tops: 8

Long sleeve shirts 15

Sweaters 10

Jackets: 6

Hoodies: 11

Yoga pants: 4

Dresses: 11

Rompers: 2

I'm always so horrified that a disaster will happen, or I'll lose all of my stuff (which has happened before due to a rough kinda life), and just generally often worried that I will lose my journals somehow in some way. When there are tornadoes, I always want to bring my whole collection of journals down to the basement with me. I have about 15 completely full journals of about 10 years of my life.

WELL! I FINALLY took the time to scan every single page front to back of all of my journals. They are all now backed up onto several flash drives that I can keep in a lockbox, and an external hard drive. Those can easily be stored in my purse or even on my phone in the "safe folder". I have a couple micro SD cards as well that are generally kept in my laptop bag. So now I feel SO MUCH MORE secure with having them backed up in multiple different places. It took about 6 hours but I did it!