TW my therapist said hearing about my sa turns him on
ist there any context where it would be okay for a therapist to tell a patient that hearing about their SA turns them on?
i just feel so weird about it, and like i can't really be mad about it because him saying that instantly turned me on. i feel so fucked up for that.
i know in my head that it is bad, especially because it wasn't the first time he said inappropriate things, just one of the worst things he's said. but i just feel nothing about it or turned on. the only way i know it's fucking me up is that i can't stop thinking about it.
it's so weird. he's so empathetic, gets tears in his eyes sometimes, gives me coffee, and a blanket, makes me feel like i am important. but then whenever i talk about anything remotely sexual, he gets these inappropriate outbursts like he can't help himself.
i don't want him to be abusive. i don't want to lose him and be without a therapist. he literally let me jump the waiting list, and i was so lucky for that.