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One thing about me?? I can proudly say I’m not ashamed of NOTHING I’ve done in life.

Now don’t get me wrong.. I’m definitely not a saint 😂 and yes, I’ve made mistakes. BUT everything I’ve done stayed within MY values frfr.

Like somebody tried to shame me once cause my kids saw me tipsy 😭😂

And I was like “Heyyy… I’m here with these kids almost all day everyday, present af, sticking to the plans, making sure everybody good…”

And not to say I’m NOT already a fun mom cause I AM 😩😂 BUT let’s just say the “drunk mom” version of me be a lil EXTRA fun okayyy 😭🍷😂

Like honestly?? Them kids probably be like “yesss mommy in her Beyoncé era tonight” 😭🙃😂

But seriously, I think people spend too much time worrying about appearing perfect instead of just being REAL.

My biggest regret in life was staying with my abusive ex for 16 years… and even THAT I openly talk about because I’m way more proud of finally getting OUT 💯❤️

At the end of the day, can’t nobody shame me for surviving, healing, learning, living, making mistakes, growing, and being HUMAN fr😌

Anybody else stop caring about appearing “perfect” once they survived real life? 😭🙃

Sooo, I had a moment this morning..
After the kids went to school, I was tired AFFF after a super busy weekend: a family bbq, drinking Saturday, laundry, doing my girls hair, cleaning, and a little Sunday date night with my man lol.

And this morning, after hours of cleaning, I finally took all the garbage outside and just stood there in the fresh air feeling GOOD.
And suddenly it just HIT me like:
“Damn… I’m really fucking FREE.”
Like REALLY free😭

I had a fun weekend with family my abusive ex once isolated me from. I drank, laughed, relaxed, enjoyed myself… and the man I’m with now just LETS me be happy.

Our date night went so well, and just what I needed after so much “busy mom times” with the kids. All I feel with him is love and care: no accusations, no tension, no walking on eggshells, no feeling trapped, no feeling suffocated.. just peace, love, freedom, and calm.

And now it’s Monday after my fun, drunk mom weekend lol and I get to have a break from the kids while they’re at school to just relax in MY clean space (I’m on medical leave from work rn) or I can stay outside.

The point is:
I CAN DO WHATEVER TF I WANT.

People who’ve never experienced abuse really don’t understand what it’s like to feel like a prisoner in your own home, your supposed-to-be “safe” space. And the craziest part is that when you’re stuck in it, freedom literally feels impossible.
I had no money, 7 kids, no job, no confidence, and no clear way out. I truly could not SEE how I could ever escape that life.

BUT I DID.

And that’s why I talk about this stuff so openly now. Because I know there are women sitting outside right now praying for a different life the same way I once did.

And if that’s you: Please don’t give up on yourself!

Freedom is real. Peace is real. Happiness is real. And one day you really might randomly stand outside in the sunlight realizing:
“Nobody controls me anymore.” 😭

And honestly, this means something deeper to me because when I was in an abusive relationship, this was the ONE thing I wished for constantly and never got.

No rest, No real break, No peace, No feeling cared for AT ALL.. just survival, stress, and constantly being needed.

Now? As a single mom with a man who genuinely loves me, I don’t even feel like I “need” Mother’s Day the same way anymore because my everyday life already feels loved, appreciated, peaceful, and safe.

And that realization honestly makes me sad for a lot of moms. Because I think so many women secretly don’t want expensive gifts, big dinners, or flowers nearly as much as they want rest, consideration, support, peace, and maybe just a few uninterrupted hours to breathe.

Honestly, hearing me talk about this subject even inspired my boyfriend to make a song dedicated to women and mothers, which still kinda blows my mind sometimes because I spent so many years feeling unseen.

And what’s really messed up is a lot of the people around her probably don’t even realize THAT’S the gift she truly wants.

But now I’m curious… how was y’all Mother’s Day REALLY? 😭

And if you could change ONE thing about it, what would it be?

LOL!

This is extra funny to me causey my Pisces cousin (39F) literally just called me (38F) last night with relationship drama. But, the thing is, they keep doing this “giving space break thing” but staying friends only to be in the SAME type of argument a few months later.

I was like “Girll! You gotta go”

She like “Yep, me and him can just be friends and mess around sometimes”

I was like “NO! You keep doing the same thing over and expecting a different result, that’s insanity! You need to GO, no friends, no messing around”😩😂😂

I doubt if she’ll listen though lol.

But ME? This Pisces right here been through ENOUGH! I could never choose insanity, it’s always PEACE with a side of freedom. Because as long as I’m a free Pisces and he not bringing no drama or mess, I’ll never swim away😉🙃🐟♓️