u/naomi_espiii

This is just for fun but I’m looking for interest

https://discord.gg/gdDGaq3sp

this is just for fun but i thought some of you might be interested

https://discord.gg/PjQZSwXvV

this is literally just for fun but I thought some of yall might be interested

https://discord.gg/PjQZSwXvV

Can I ask you a question?
I really need an honest answer.
It's important to me.

Do you like me as a person?

Wait! Hold on, don't say anything yet.
Think about it.
Take a second, 
and really think about your answer.

There was a 50/50 shot 
of you saying either yes or no.
Out of 100 people with varying knowledge 
of who I am,
The ratio should be 50/50 (give or take 10-15 on either side)

What if I told you that I posted a comment with the N-word on an Instagram reel?

Did that change anything?

What if I told you that I believe that the online lgbtq community is just as much of a problem for our youth as the current forum that presses the beauty standard?

How about now?

What if I told you that I used to fake being suicidal just to see who would come running
Or that I reported my father for physical abuse when he has never put his hands on me?

Now?

How about if I believe that I think abortion should be legal, regardless of the circumstances?
God isn't real, and is just a concept made by people 
Or that America is nowhere near as innocent as we act like it is.
Have you ever heard of the Tokyo carpet bombing in World War II? 
Check that out. We bombed a civilian city with no relation to the war.
And if that hasn't done anything for you yet,
I'd also like to state that ICE is necessary, and the American dream is dead.

Okay! Now that you have that information, I'm going to ask again,

What do you think about me?

A lot of you may be upset with me. That's okay. But I'd like you to keep reading.

What if I told you that my dad has never once accepted me for who I am?
That he calls me names and puts me down with his words just to make me as small as possible?
That's when I brought him to therapy, he would tell my therapists all about how i was manipulative and that I was lying to them about how he acted
Or that when he called me a fuckup, and I snapped and told him to fuck off, he dropped me off four miles from home and told me to walk.
He didn't go around the block to come get me.
He went home and left me in the street.

What if I told you that since my depression started in 2018, I cannot trust that anyone truly cares about me? That they care for me, how I care for them? I needed to know.

I am of Mexican origin, and both of my grandparents are immigrants.
Some of my cousins are terrorists.

I prayed to god once- 
I prayed that he would make things better
I prayed that he would help me get out of this sadness that never left 
That I could make a friend. That I didn't have to survive through complete isolation,
I went to senior prom by myself.

“What do you think now?
Please be honest.
It’s important to me.