should I confess so i can move on?
This is going to be a long one, aka mixing signals final boss.
So this all started last year, we are both female (19) btw. We were mutuals for a bit and started texting after she reached out to me, it was very friendly and just chill. until one day she started to be more flirty you could say, but in a jk manner. I also don't really know the true meaning behind it but i just played along. (thing is she told me she was celibate at that time and not lesbian because her parents don't support it) So we texted all day almost everyday for a long time, things started to get more confusing for me because she started sending pics of herself that i wouldn't say you would send your friend (it wasn't that crazy tho), so i was overthinking everything. until one day she decided to fly me out to hangout with her. i went for a few days over the weekend. we honestly had a really fun time and held hands here and there. then the week after she flew me out again and i think that was when i realised wow i really like spending time with her. (she is very wealthy and in a diff tax bracket compared to me btw.) So after that we started to text less and less and it stopped for a while, during that time i noticed that i kept thinking about her and after a few months of self reflecting i realised i must have a huge crush on her. (Also before she flew me out, she told me about her past roster etc. and till now i think she still isn't entirely over her ex boyfriend.)
Back to the present, i texted her again, she was really dry and the vibe was completely diff, but she still said that she missed me. well back to my question now, should i just confess how i feel? eventho i know this would not work, and it's not like i expect something out of it anyways, since i think i wouldn't be able to give her what she deserves or expects. i just feel like i'm going crazy and it's really distracting.
so either i confess and honestly hope she just blocks me, or i just let it be and continue the mutual liking posts on social media here and there. i really don't even mind just being friends, at least something yk, but i also get the vibe that she doesn't even really sees me as a friend.
(of course some other stuff also happened that were not mentioned, but this is it summed up)
Some of my friends tell me i should just confess, and others say i shouldn't since it's already been so long. but if i do, then i feel like there's no turning back.