u/nate0___

(got my previous post deleted for some reason)

im sure my kind are a dime a dozen but here we are. pklp (kasaysayan) is genuinely kicking me in the behind.

so many deep words and yet I can barely make a comprehensive sentence. our teacher doesn't explain in English either, which I'm not complaining, it's our language, but im struggling to understand \*anything\* from the class.

im worried i might fail this subject, which i don't want. i haven't been fluent with tagalog since I was a kid, and I've always spoken in clear English and never really experienced speaking in pure tagalog before. i know tagalog to an extent, and i can make sentences, but im not sure about the quality.

some words my friends say, I don't even know, yet they're everyday words to them. i don't know how i can fix this, because im in year 11. im probably YEARS behind in my education regarding tagalog and i really need help.

*FIRSTLY before anyone says this: even if you declare that i am still "fine" with an obtuse body away from the standard, im still uncomfortable with how i look or how i feel like im being treated.*

hello. i don't know if this is is a place to ask this but im still searching for an answer : how do you get a feminine body ?

I've been trying for months but don't have much change. I have progress, but it's not enough as I'm overweight. i don't really have equipment, nor access to going outside and i much prefer being at home (call me lazy but that's what I am :< ). depression is hitting like a bitch but i am willing to realign my body because of that.

im eerily dysphoric of women with bodies i find envious. waist, back, arms, thighs and calves. i also envy how their shoulders are sometimes not broad but i don't know how to change that. i am not slim in the slightest, and i look like a tiny fridge. my stomach is really showing itself, my upper arms are slightly flabby (the fem clothes I wear don't really have wide sleeves), my thighs are massive, and my clothes look tight on the back. it REALLY puts me off when I notice it, and it makes me really uncomfortable (and other stuff but i don't want to violate rule 9.) all the time.

im still trying to find closure to this question that i have been trying for a year now. it would really help me.

sincerely, a very troubled trans girl