u/necromirte

I'm just at work and my partner is sleeping and im just thinking myself into a spiral waiting for him to respond. im getting people recommended on social media that he follows and im making all these stupid scenarios and i dont want to. im literally ice cold and sweating from pure anxiety and stress. i dont want to feel like this i dont want to make up these stories and fullheartedly believe them i just want to sit at work and do my work, and not get distracted and not need the reassurance and not need to hurt myself to snap out of this BULLSHIT. im so over it i did the therapy i read the books i did the mindfullness i tried the meds what can i genuinely do at this point just to feel normal im just so done

i dont make other plans, i dont consider other people. if i cancel plans with friends its not a sacrifice to me because being with him is what i wanted more in the first place anyway. he went on and on asking me what i have sacrificed and idk what to even answer.

he told me i dont love him and i'm just obsessed with him. i was single for a few months last year and i was entirely symptom free before i met him. i often think if i should just be alone even though romantic love is all i want.