u/nobody___101

I want to tell him how I feel, but I don't want to do it over text but I always get too nervous to tell him in person, and I don't even know if he likes me back. We're also friends, and I don't want to ruin the friendship. I also just don't really know how to go about asking him out since I don't normally ask people out.

Edit: We both dislike calling, and we are in high school and on summer break, and I get too nervous telling people I like them in person. I know I am making this really difficult and am really only leaving it to telling him over text, but I hate doing that, so I've kinda just been stuck in this loop of not sure what to do.

I like you, and that feels strange to say because we’ve only known each other for nine months, but I’ve liked you for seven. I don’t know how to tell you, but you make me feel seen and overall better. I smile more around you, and I think that’s part of the reason I like you. I don’t feel like I have to act a certain way around you I can just be myself. I’m not really sure why it happened, but it did, and I really want to tell you. I just don’t want to make things awkward between us. I really don’t want to lose you as a friend over this. I think that’s what fears me the most it’s not getting rejected, it’s losing you. Losing the person who makes me feel like being weird is normal and that who I am is not bad. I honestly hope you see this, even though I know you won’t.

So I play Tomodachi Life and I always update my friends on what's going on since I've made them. I've obviously made myself and my crush, and his Mii had fallen down, so I took my Mii over to his to help him up. His Mii got a crush on mine, and you can have them not like them, but I blamed it on not paying attention while watching a show. All he said was “I need to keep it in my pants,” and I don't know why he said that or why it made me so flustered. It's not like he even seemed like he hated it or anything either, and I think that just made it worse.

So my crush made me download Fortnite so we could play together, but I wasn’t able to get it until today (not enough storage on my Switch since I didn’t have an SD card) so When I finally got it and added him, I told him I wasn’t going to play then, and I felt bad for not giving him a reason, especially since I told him I would play it with him once I got it. Not long ago, I messaged him saying why I hadn’t played it with him, and I just feel kinda bad about it because I said I would, but I didn’t.

So this morning, he (15 M) messaged me (16 F) saying how he picked the worst shorts and T-shirt combo possible and that he looked bad. I kind of just asked why he did that, and then the conversation died down after that. I don’t see him until lunch since we don’t share any morning classes. When I do see him at lunch, he doesn’t look bad, just kinda colour full colourful. Fast forward to after school, I’m on the bus, thinking about it, and I decided to text him saying that his outfit didn’t look bad I’ve seen worse. I was kinda internally panicking internally because I just said that he didn’t look bad today, and I wanted to delete it, but he had already seen it. So I just waited, hoping he would reply with anything, but he didn’t. Now I feel like I did something wrong.