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He let his friend who I asked for boundaries with stay over and they hooked up. I had went over to check up on him because he had been feeling sick lately and wasn’t answering my texts. I saw the aftermath. Condom. Alcohol. Desperation. Them knocked out on the floor. A mess. It was traumatic. How do I get it out of my head?

I’m going through waves of emotions. I’m feeling more numb and anger than anything. I don’t know what to do. We are supposed to exchange things later on today.

How do I get through this? I don’t want to feel. I don’t want to fall into old bad habits I used to do before I got with him. I was in a dark place getting drunk all the time. I wanted a life with him, but we hit a rocky patch recently. Then he cheats on me.

I’ve never been cheated on before. The idea of doing this all over again in the future with someone new is exhausting. I’m not young, but he was the first I’ve done many things with a male. Both emotionally and intimately. Basically the first man I really loved. I trusted him. I loved him. Now I have to force myself to move on because he took all that from me and slept with his best friend.

I am currently fostering a cat. This would be my first cat ever in my life so there has been a lot of learning and adapting to her.

Before I began, I had no idea essential oils were toxic, but my mother used essential oils in another room and I could smell it in the air vent as my room is right next to hers. I was taking a nap with my foster cat and I woke up briefly. I was half asleep when I smelt peppermint, looked over, the cat is asleep. Though I just now woke up from my nap with the cat.

Luna (the cat) is completely fine. I did some research to see about essential oils and yup. Toxic. My mother and I would have not known as my mom uses oils often so I would not have guessed.

I did some research about other things that are toxic as well to become aware before it’s too late.

Luna doesn’t seem to have any symptoms of being sick. I’m assuming because it was so brief the scent was in the air and my mom was using it as she was leaving for the night as a repellent for mosquitos.

Should I do anything as I am fostering and she seems fine? I will be monitoring her as much as I can, though I will be having to leave briefly for the evening for a couple of hours (I have a camera in the room while I’m out) but I’m unsure to let the shelter know of this since they said if any issues arise while she’s in my care to let them know. She’s not acting abnormal and the smell is long gone now as this was 2 hours ago as I write this.

Please let me know your thoughts. If it seems like I’m not worried, I am. I’m just now waking up from my nap and I’m not 100% here 😅