How can you ever trust anyone again?
Just found out my (30F) boyfriend of 10+ years has been cheating on me with multiple women including sex workers and escorts. It was just such a shock to my system. He acted kind to me and my family and friends and deep down he was this monster in secrecy. I forced him to tell the truth in front of his closest family members. He deserves the shame. Luckily we never got married or had kids and I found out right before we signed a new lease. I’m moving out ASAP. I’ll be getting an STD panel this week and I’m just terrified.
Most of this was a vent to not stew in my thoughts by myself at night.. but I guess my question to the group is:
If you’ve ever been in a position like this.. How do you ever begin to trust men/women anymore to have another relationship? I feel like I will be forever paranoid. I feel so dumb I didn’t find out earlier and regret wasting my 20’s with him. I know part of this is a blessing in disguise that I found out now, but god it hurts so badly. Thank you for reading.