u/nomore6272

I am a man in my thirties. Most of my conscious life I am have been aware of my proclivity to avoid conflict, flee from confrontation. Now I want to get rid of it but I feel physically sick when being forced to confront someone. I freeze, my heartbeat explodes, my thoughts race, I feel depleted even before I do anything. This has become unbearable, the shame of knowing that I cannot overcome my cowardice and I do not want to be a disgrace for my son and my wife. Therapy had not helped me. I have tried martial arts for some time then I stopped it. I look at myself in the mirror and I hate myself. The perpetuation of this state takes me to dark places.

I have nothing else to lose which is why I want reach out and seek for help from strangers.

I can't be the only one going through this. Please help me with your advice.

I am a man in my thirties. Most of my conscious life I am have been aware of my proclivity to avoid conflict, flee from confrontation. Now I want to get rid of it but I feel physically sick when being forced to confront someone. I freeze, my heartbeat explodes, my thoughts race, I feel depleted even before I do anything. This has become unbearable, the shame of knowing that I cannot overcome my cowardice and I do not want to be a disgrace for my son and my wife. Therapy had not helped me. I have tried martial arts for some time then I stopped it. I look at myself in the mirror and I hate myself. The perpetuation of this state takes me to dark places.

I have nothing else to lose which is why I want reach out and seek for help from strangers.

I can't be the only one going through this. Please help me with your advice.

I am a man in my thirties. Most of my conscious life I am have been aware of my proclivity to avoid conflict, flee from confrontation. Now I want to get rid of it but I feel physically sick when being forced to confront someone. I freeze, my heartbeat explodes, my thoughts race, I feel depleted even before I do anything. This has become unbearable, the shame of knowing that I cannot overcome my cowardice and I do not want to be a disgrace for my son and my wife. Therapy had not helped me. I have tried martial arts for some time then I stopped it. I look at myself in the mirror and I hate myself. The perpetuation of this state takes me to dark places.

So I've decided to reach out and seek for help from strangers.

I can't be the only one going through this. Please help me with your advice.