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Some days ago I got my grades for the semester, I improved my grades in multiple subjects, some subjects I didn’t but I still passed. But of course I failed math.

I got all accommodations you could think of, getting one on one help in math and more can’t be bothered to write all of the accommodations I’ve gotten.

Yet I still failed. Literally how? It literally feels like nothings ever going to improve. That I’ll never pass math, I’ve lost all hope at this point. I already want to drop out of my new school and it’s two months until school starts.

I feel so behind compared to everyone else, my brother is going to university most certainly, and I’m here feeling like a burden to my family. I can’t even do basic math and I probably won’t even be able to get my dream education due to dyscalculia destroying my dream.

I’ll give it one school year and if I still haven’t passed math in that time frame I’ll drop out. With that being said, I don’t feel any motivation to study but I’m forcing myself to otherwise I’ll be at home all day doing nothing and wasting everyone’s time.

So now I’m just waiting in pure nervousness of having to do like a hundred units (overreacting but it really feels like I have to do that,) I truly wish I didn’t have dyscalculia. It has ruined my chance of getting my dream education.

Didn’t know wether to put this as discussion or question.
But how do other visually impaired people handle with going up and down the stairs?

For me, I just hope that there’s a railing for me to hold onto as I go up and down the stairs, otherwise I hold onto the wall and look down as I go up and down the stairs.

Going up and down the stairs is such a nervous moment for me, I don’t really know why. I suppose it’s because I can’t tell how far away the steps are from eachother and I’m always scared that I’ll fall or trip while going up or down the stairs.

I don’t have any stairs in my home, but the school I’m switching too after summer break has a lot of stairs, I just hope that there are railings to hold onto.

Apologizes if this isn’t the right flair, I didn’t know if I should pick technology or question since it’s both and apologizes incase of any grammar mistakes I make. English isn’t my first language.

But I’m starting in a new school after summer break, in my school I was in recently before summer break started, we used iPads. On my school iPad I used increase contrast, the largest text size, dark mode and reduce white point. In this new school I’m pretty sure that I’m getting a school laptop. i have never used a computer or a laptop ever so I don’t know what the accessibility features are and if they varies depending on what companies develop the laptops. I don’t know what laptop I’m going to get.

What accessibility features are usually available on laptops?

I think that my school is going to use some of googles apps, like Google Classroom, Google Docs and maybe more. Not sure. In those apps, is there dark mode and increasing text size available as a setting inside the app and are other accessibility features available as settings inside the app? I haven’t checked this out on my own and I’ve never used these apps before.

If anyone has any knowledge on this, please share in the comments.

I posted some weeks ago a post on here asking if there was anyone else who had ROP, and the response was so much and I’m happy that I found this subreddit.
But here’s a question I have for people who had ROP who had to get laser treatment, did you get complications?

As I mentioned in my previous post, I had to get laser treatment. I developed complications as manifest strabismus in my right eye, nearsightedness, and this one isn’t a direct consequence of the laser treatment, it’s a consequence of my strabismus but i have issues with depth perception and I hate going up and down stairs because of it. I also misjudge the height and how far away a curb is.

There’s also a risk I have a loss of peripheral vision. It’s weird because I haven’t noticed it myself, but my eye doctor mentioned it at my latest checkup without doing any test which is weird but at the next checkup I’ll do a eye field test.

I liked talking to all of you in the previous post, I’ve realized that I’m not alone in my experience even though it might feel that way. Looking forward to read your responses.

Tried my best for years to pass math to no avail. Still can’t pass and I’m failing math this semester again. I’m not even happy to get summer break because I know that I’m going to with 99% certainty fail math and having to study up like a year of math. I only passed one part in math out of the I don’t know how many parts. It feels hopeless.

I’m on the verge of tears every math lesson. It feels like it never gets easier. I feel like a disappointment. A burden. Doesn’t make it any better that I have ASD and a visual impairment.

Traits I have of my dyscalculia
• poor depth perception (also a symptom of my visual impairment.)
• difficulty measuring distances
• can’t learn the analog clock no matter how much I learn
• can’t do multiplication or division without a calculator (ashamed to admit this)
• can’t do math questions like 7 + 9 without a calculator, I try to figure it out in my head but I get lost while I count.
• I forget everything I learn that has to do with math no matter how much I repeat it

I have more but I forgot about it.
I hate having this disorder , I feel stuck in learning math. It feels so pointless trying. All of my efforts lead to nothing. If I don’t pass math in. A year after studying up , I’m going to drop out. “Fun”. 🙃

How am I even going to become anything ? I don’t know what to do anymore. It feels like nothing matters anymore. It feels like no one understands.
I’m literally two grades or one grade behind in multiple parts. I’m genuinely so done. I just want to give up. What’s the point ???? I’m close to tears while writing this.

I wish that there would be a cure. I wish I could be like everyone else. I hate this so much. It feels like nothings ever going to improve. All I want is to pass math. That’s all I want and wanted for multiple years but I always fail that goal . Fun being the disappointment and burden of the family! 🙃 it feels like no one understands how much this disorder affected and is affecting my life. I most likely won’t be able to get into my dream education to get my dream job.

I haven’t met anyone neither online or offline who has had ROP or that has gotten laser treatment for it. I feel alone in my experience.

My story
I was born premature and I only weighed five hundred grams when I was born.
I developed ROP (I don’t know what stage I had). I had to get laser treatment or I would be completely blind.
I also have autism and dyscalculia.

How did you manage school when you have had ROP or gotten laser treatment for it ?
In my experience I’ve only gotten to sit infront of the whiteboard . I wonder if
anyone has gotten accommodations.

Has anyone else gotten complications due to the laser treatment?
I got nearsightedness, manifest strabismus in my right eye, my peripheral vision got affected according to my eye doctor.

I have difficulty walking in stairs and have difficulty with seeing for example edges while walking. Recently I’ve gotten light sensitivity also.

I would like to talk with anyone that has had ROP or gotten laser treatment.

This is posted so that people are made aware and can avoid these scams / hacks in the future. (I apologize in advance for any spelling errors / mistakes and for any grammar mistakes . English is my second language.)

This scam is usually posted on youtube.

A owner of a YouTube channel (usually with a low subscriber count) posts videos of them giving away pets for “free” to their supporters and etc they make themselves seem trustworthy but when someone wants them to boost their pets, the scammer is usually only looking for mega, neon, or valuable pets. These are the first red flags but there’s more. They often use bad grammar, and incoherent sentences, the overuse of the word “friend” or “bestie” is also a prominent feature of this scam. Also the sentence “Can I borrow ___ for five seconds? I’ll return it with a surprise” is also a popular phrase used by people that uses this scam.

The first trade is often successful, with the scammer giving the person back , but often the trades after the first, the scammer wants you to add more and more pets “for the big surprise”. And when the player wants the scammer to give them their pets back, they’ll often say “just do this and I’ll give you the pets back” but they never do. I’ve seen many people on YouTube falling for this scam.

Has anyone else seen this?

During these recent days I’ve been dealing with what I assume is late complications either due to my ROP that I had or the laser surgery that I had to get due to ROP ( I assume it’s stage three or higher since I had to get laser surgery to save my eye sight, my parents won’t tell me)

I’m
Sensitive to light especially light mode on devices, lamps doesn’t bother me and the sunlight also bothers me but it’s when I’m outside but also when I’m inside because I can barely have my curtains open now when the sun is shining.
I haven’t been able to read small text as I used to. A example is Reddit posts. I haven’t been able to read them as good as I used to , the text is too small.
I’ve been testing apples aid , larger text and increasing constract helps a lot for Me.
But I’m so anxious, what if there’s a major change to my eyes that I don’t know about?
I haven’t been to an eye doctor in two months, it was just a normal checkup looking at the frame where you have to tell what letters you see.
My eye doctor said that she didn’t see a major difference from last time but I can’t help but feel anxious
These new symptoms came up a few days ago. I haven’t gotten a in-depth eye checkup in years. I’m on the waiting list and I don’t know if it’s worth it to ask the hospital where I get the in-depth checkup if they have any idea of when I’m able to go there. And the times where you can call them are when I’m at school so I can’t call them myself.
How do I deal with this health anxiety or what to call it? I’m so anxious and I’m planning on talking to my teachers about this but I don’t know if it’ll do me any good. I’m scared that they’ll dismiss my feelings and anxiety about this whole thing.

Context: I was born premature and developed ROP. I had to get a laser operation to save my eye sight or I would be completely blind. I did the laser operation but I’ve gotten late complications. I’m nearsighted, i have strabismus on my right eye and I’m almost fully blind in my right eye. I’m still in school and to be honest I don’t have much accommodations than sitting infront of the class whiteboard . Recently I’ve become sensitive to light, I was before these new symptoms sensitive to sunlight outside, I had and still have to cover the sun with my hand when I’m outside or fully look at the ground when I’m walking. But now I can barely even open my curtains and on my devices i have to have websites and etc on dark mode, I can’t bare to have websites etc at light mode and I need to have my devices at low brightness And it’s a problem because in school one of the websites we use doesn’t have light mode, so whenever I use that website I need to zoom in a lot on the words and read them over and over again.
How do I talk to my teachers about this? I don’t want to be dismissed by them and being told to just “deal with it” or anything by those lines . Does anyone have any advice on how to talk with them?
Thanks in advance .