Developing Conversationalism?
Hi. I am a late 30s severe low vision individual who has been struggling with that affliction since 2001. My right retina is completely gone and my remaining vision is like looking at the world t hrough a thin pane of frosted glass: blurry, but I have shapes and colors. No facial definition without being inches away. No grasp of action happening more than a few feet from me. Print blind unless the magnification is 500% or so. I'm sure many of you get it.
Because of my disability and growing up in an area where it wasn't really known how to handle a disabled child, I'm only just coming into assistive aid and understanding the possibilties blind people still have at this stage of my life. My question, though, is that I feel like I'm a rather boring individual to my sighted husband. He's an energy vampire. Really thrives off of the energy people bring to the room. I'm a quiet, reserved, controlled-by-perfectionist-worries-because-of-trauma sort of individual that hasn't really learned how to put myself out there much yet. Between that and my limited intake of media, which largely boils down to listening to books and listening to YouTube on my one major hobby (tabletop games)—note: my husband isn't into those himself. He'll listen to me talk about it, and has a grasp of what I'm talking about through his own small exposure, but I often worry that I'll bore him without having a wider range of interests...—I'm still figuring that part out formyself, who I am, and I don't really have the stream-of-consciousness that comes with being chatty and energetic—nevermind the lack of passively osmosed observations that go into the average person's ability to process their way through conversation.
I know not all blind people are like me and I know some of you, even the ones who have never had sight, manage to be fine conversationalists who know how to pass a few hours with a good chat. How do I learn that skill? How do you make the world engaging enough to have commentary on it when so much of it passes us by and we're only able to listen to so much audio at a time—it's slower than the average reader, I feel.
I just feel like figuring this out should've been obvious to me after dealing with the blindness for so long, but I've only recently started to try to break out of a life on autopilot...
Thoughts would be lovely. Thank you.